Hi friends 😍😘
I want to start off by thanking @rambo and @missy for keeping the previous blog homework topics posted! There are so many clever ideas to go off of, and it makes blogging so much simpler! Anywho, let's dive right in.
My top 5 reasons for wanting to pursue modeling for SuicideGirls range from simple to very personal. Here goes!
1. I have actually admired these women since I was a young teenager! And a few years after my initial discovery, @radeo is the one who really captivated me. To this day I still really look up to her. When I came across SuicideGirls, I was a lonely misunderstood little 14 year old girl. I suppressed my quirks. Wore what I thought everyone wanted to see. Made a fool of myself many, many times trying to seem 'cool'. Then I saw these gorgeous, alternative, tattooed women with wild hair and piercings everywhere! And I thought to myself that I can be free. Free of societal chains, free of those impossible standards we all try to live up to. It was a mindset that I really needed to learn in my younger years, and I'm so happy that SG taught it to me! Maybe a young girl will see my picture and learn to not give a fuck as well.
2. 🖤Body positivity 🖤 I absolutely love how SucideGirls celebrates women of all sizes!! The notion that we as women can be unapologetically ourselves makes us unstoppable. In my early 20s I struggled with an eating disorder after being sexually assaulted. I hated my body and was so uncomfortable in my skin. That was when I made my first steps to joining this community. I had to put my journey on pause for my pregnancy, but I swore I'd still pursue this dream. I want my daughter to know that the woman she came from is not ashamed. That we as females can be sexually empowered and respectable at the same damn time!! And that every girl should have the option to feel beautiful and strong in both nudity and modesty.
3. SuicideGirls Friendships!! I am so inspired by the fun-loving, heartfelt, and true friendships I've seen through this community. The fact that @damsel @ackley and @vorpal all had fellow SG's in their bridal parties shows me how incredible friendships built on this site can really be. I am looking forward to makeing bonds with like minded beauties! And maybe I'll collect a sweet SG bestie like these ladies did!
4. Shootfests and traveling. This kind of relates to the friendship reason as well, but in different places all over the world! I hope that my sets can take me to the level where I feel confident enough to shoot with other beautiful women in new beautiful places.
5. My own self love and acceptance. As I stated above I have been assaulted. I battled anorxia. I always thought I was ruined. Damaged goods. But now I know that I am not. And I owe a huge portion that discovery to this community. I've always daydreamed about modeling for this site, but actually putting that into motion has totally revamped the way I view myself and my outlook on how others view me. 💕
