I feel like shit today. I think I'll quit smoking, just to make m week interesting for everyone else at work. And to spice it up further I won't tell anyone I'm quitting smoking. At work.
I guess I'm going to take some new pictures, because I've got absolutely nothing important I want to do right now. Besides take a shower and eat dinner... and get a new tattoo, but that's not happening.
Got my motherfuckin' hairs cut today and had a good workout while listening to some slammin' metal... so at least I can say I produced something today. More than I can say for work since it was slow and I worked alone for 8 hour s. Hmm. Money on Friday. I need it. D:
I'm pretty upset that I didn't go see Dark Tranquility, Soilwork and Mnemic when they came through town last month. Oh well. The next show I want to see is July 9 unless something changes. Sounds of the Underground Tour is going to be very good : ) I can't believe of unimpressive the line-up is right now for the vest concert venue here. So very.
There's a reason why I've lived this long, there's a reason why I'll be alive a long time from now, and there's a reason why I question these things at times. I don't think I'm dramatic or anything. The things I say are just how I work through my problems-- how I try to understand them.
I don't feel I hang on to the past overly much and I'm not terrified of it. It's my reminder of what not to do and what can happen if I don't heed that advice. Yeah alot of bad things have happened to me, so what? Cancer, military, shitty lovers, medication, psychology, physical pain, loneliness-- pretty normal shit if you ask me. Maybe the cancer isn't, but enough people have it and have had it for it to be common. I'm glad I'm not dead and I'm glad I know the things I know now. If anything, it's all so I can be a better writer. I'd like to be able to express myself when and how I like just as the next person would. Especially the next person in China. But that's neither here nor there. It all boils down to practice for writing whether it's a song or a prose or just a simple story.
Later... I'm gonna go be alone now. I had enough of people today.
I guess I'm going to take some new pictures, because I've got absolutely nothing important I want to do right now. Besides take a shower and eat dinner... and get a new tattoo, but that's not happening.
Got my motherfuckin' hairs cut today and had a good workout while listening to some slammin' metal... so at least I can say I produced something today. More than I can say for work since it was slow and I worked alone for 8 hour s. Hmm. Money on Friday. I need it. D:
I'm pretty upset that I didn't go see Dark Tranquility, Soilwork and Mnemic when they came through town last month. Oh well. The next show I want to see is July 9 unless something changes. Sounds of the Underground Tour is going to be very good : ) I can't believe of unimpressive the line-up is right now for the vest concert venue here. So very.
There's a reason why I've lived this long, there's a reason why I'll be alive a long time from now, and there's a reason why I question these things at times. I don't think I'm dramatic or anything. The things I say are just how I work through my problems-- how I try to understand them.
I don't feel I hang on to the past overly much and I'm not terrified of it. It's my reminder of what not to do and what can happen if I don't heed that advice. Yeah alot of bad things have happened to me, so what? Cancer, military, shitty lovers, medication, psychology, physical pain, loneliness-- pretty normal shit if you ask me. Maybe the cancer isn't, but enough people have it and have had it for it to be common. I'm glad I'm not dead and I'm glad I know the things I know now. If anything, it's all so I can be a better writer. I'd like to be able to express myself when and how I like just as the next person would. Especially the next person in China. But that's neither here nor there. It all boils down to practice for writing whether it's a song or a prose or just a simple story.
Later... I'm gonna go be alone now. I had enough of people today.
blackbirdy:
hehe...that would get me everytime! I'm glad you're not dead either, if that helps. I noticed you are from MO. I lived in Kansas City for 7 years so it's nice to see people from familiar places. take care! 