It's been over due with great laziness behind it all, but I bring you a new post.
I thought I was going to end my time with SG here, not understanding the method of how to renew membership (because I never cared to find ot the details at first) but however I see it's a reoccuring bill to the card.
hmm that was simple to handle actually. So like KoRn once said though their musical talents: I'm here to stay. I cannot leave the place of sexual freedom and expression.
(though I wish I could be more in tune with members and SG girls alike. I am single again.
Speaking of which, in my last blog I mentioned another girl I had come to love, this has come and gone sadly.
I think I have to avoid girls younger than me and stop letting myself be come the dominated. I honestly try to make it a mutual thing instead. Well so she was a Pisces and such a cutie that was goth, oohhh damn I was super attracted to her for over a year and a half. It took forever t open her to where she developed feelings for me, and though it was long distance I thought maybe this time I can handle this girl better than the last.
I loved her with ease, loved her more than she did unto me, became exclusive to her even though we didn't date or have the ablity claim one another. I even fought a love triangle just to make sure I held her high and become the only one I love but I guess distance dulled her feelings for me in time.
I grabbed my chest as something ethereal escaped me. Couldn't contain what wasn't mines to begin with, so she left me on accounts wanting keep things open....but really that meant to leave me to dry instead.
Don't think I'll ever get to be with her in this lifetime. I hurt somewhat still but I want to move on because I know she's already done so from me. and there's more girls that would like to meet me I suppose. So I am on the hunt to find someone more suiting this time. It's also been so long snce my last lay, sex is elusive everytime.
Merry Christmas Everyone as well.
I didn't do anything for once on a Christmas, such a boring day this time. COD doesn't raise the holiday spirits either. I am eager to chat someone up, pass the time and laugh because this path I'm on seems to be dead and decayed.
-SMK
I thought I was going to end my time with SG here, not understanding the method of how to renew membership (because I never cared to find ot the details at first) but however I see it's a reoccuring bill to the card.
hmm that was simple to handle actually. So like KoRn once said though their musical talents: I'm here to stay. I cannot leave the place of sexual freedom and expression.
(though I wish I could be more in tune with members and SG girls alike. I am single again.
Speaking of which, in my last blog I mentioned another girl I had come to love, this has come and gone sadly.
I think I have to avoid girls younger than me and stop letting myself be come the dominated. I honestly try to make it a mutual thing instead. Well so she was a Pisces and such a cutie that was goth, oohhh damn I was super attracted to her for over a year and a half. It took forever t open her to where she developed feelings for me, and though it was long distance I thought maybe this time I can handle this girl better than the last.
I loved her with ease, loved her more than she did unto me, became exclusive to her even though we didn't date or have the ablity claim one another. I even fought a love triangle just to make sure I held her high and become the only one I love but I guess distance dulled her feelings for me in time.
I grabbed my chest as something ethereal escaped me. Couldn't contain what wasn't mines to begin with, so she left me on accounts wanting keep things open....but really that meant to leave me to dry instead.
Don't think I'll ever get to be with her in this lifetime. I hurt somewhat still but I want to move on because I know she's already done so from me. and there's more girls that would like to meet me I suppose. So I am on the hunt to find someone more suiting this time. It's also been so long snce my last lay, sex is elusive everytime.
Merry Christmas Everyone as well.
I didn't do anything for once on a Christmas, such a boring day this time. COD doesn't raise the holiday spirits either. I am eager to chat someone up, pass the time and laugh because this path I'm on seems to be dead and decayed.
-SMK
Thanks for your support on the hopeful thing though! I'm actually trying to find a good photographer in my area right now!
PS No way I'm sharing that book! She's all mine!