Ever since I was in highschool I got pegged as the nice guy. That was back when I was 16 years old. Well, I just turned 28 on September 8th and I have yet to shake that reputation but you know, in a weird way it is starting to show some peculiar reward.
For the first time in ... well I don't know how long ... I have actually been going out on dates with some decent women. Some of the others are a bit on the scary side. I have even met a couple that were amazing. And I expressed interest and all of the sudden they lost interest in me ... I should have known that it would happen though. One girl in particular was hung up on her ex ... so I backed off. Which I guess was a good thing.
This past tuesday I was getting ready to leave a party and she wanted to walk me to the door . So she did and we started talking and she was seeming a bit jittery and I didn't understand as to "why" because I am usually the one who gets nervous. Well, she had a plan and before I knew it , she was kissing me. Evidently , she missed me. She said that she had been thinking about how much she loved talking to me and how much she trusted me and how it seemed that I knew her even though we had only been talking for a short period of time. And my thoughts were " why couldn't this have happened a month sooner, before I ran into Courtney."
Courtney and I happened upon each other outside of a comic shop. 3 years prior we worked together and we even flirted and talked about going out and doing something. I got cold feet. She quit that job and went onto something else and we ran into each other again and talked about doing something and again, I got cold feet. And here we are running into each other the third time after I had been thinking about what could have possibly happened to her the week prior and all I can think is ... " You better call this time." And I did. And we got together and we talked for hours. And we got together again and talked for hours and all I keep thinking is that I would do anything for her. I want to be there for her in anyway that I can. I would marry her tomorrow if she would say yes. And now after I meet her ... these women that I had feelings for are starting to resurface. This time though, they want to get together with me and I keep thinking about someone else.
They all say the same thing to me " you are an amazingly sweet guy ." I got told that I am "Incredible" and all of these other words that really hold no meaning because at one time these women rejected me. It would seem that a majority of the women that I am taking out have ex boyfriends that are assholes and they remember the way that I treated them when we went out and they want to be with me.
I really don't know how all of this will end. I don't know if Courtney and I wll be together and be more than friends but she has left her mark on me. I don't know what will happen with the girl that kissed me ... she is a beautiful disaster. And there are a few others ... the one that I hope keeps her distance is a girl named Amanda ... but that is a different story altogether.
Hope you enjoyed the journal entry ... I think the next one might be on my music and where it isn't headed.
For the first time in ... well I don't know how long ... I have actually been going out on dates with some decent women. Some of the others are a bit on the scary side. I have even met a couple that were amazing. And I expressed interest and all of the sudden they lost interest in me ... I should have known that it would happen though. One girl in particular was hung up on her ex ... so I backed off. Which I guess was a good thing.
This past tuesday I was getting ready to leave a party and she wanted to walk me to the door . So she did and we started talking and she was seeming a bit jittery and I didn't understand as to "why" because I am usually the one who gets nervous. Well, she had a plan and before I knew it , she was kissing me. Evidently , she missed me. She said that she had been thinking about how much she loved talking to me and how much she trusted me and how it seemed that I knew her even though we had only been talking for a short period of time. And my thoughts were " why couldn't this have happened a month sooner, before I ran into Courtney."
Courtney and I happened upon each other outside of a comic shop. 3 years prior we worked together and we even flirted and talked about going out and doing something. I got cold feet. She quit that job and went onto something else and we ran into each other again and talked about doing something and again, I got cold feet. And here we are running into each other the third time after I had been thinking about what could have possibly happened to her the week prior and all I can think is ... " You better call this time." And I did. And we got together and we talked for hours. And we got together again and talked for hours and all I keep thinking is that I would do anything for her. I want to be there for her in anyway that I can. I would marry her tomorrow if she would say yes. And now after I meet her ... these women that I had feelings for are starting to resurface. This time though, they want to get together with me and I keep thinking about someone else.
They all say the same thing to me " you are an amazingly sweet guy ." I got told that I am "Incredible" and all of these other words that really hold no meaning because at one time these women rejected me. It would seem that a majority of the women that I am taking out have ex boyfriends that are assholes and they remember the way that I treated them when we went out and they want to be with me.
I really don't know how all of this will end. I don't know if Courtney and I wll be together and be more than friends but she has left her mark on me. I don't know what will happen with the girl that kissed me ... she is a beautiful disaster. And there are a few others ... the one that I hope keeps her distance is a girl named Amanda ... but that is a different story altogether.
Hope you enjoyed the journal entry ... I think the next one might be on my music and where it isn't headed.
beautiful_hatred:
Where do you meet these chicks? Just curious.
discoflyy:
I live in Columbus Ohio ... I guess I meet them around here. And it is only getting worse.