I want to run away from this place. From all the stress. The fights. The feeling of being stuck between everyone. The bullshit that goes on everyday. I just want to be able to do more than shut my eyes & PRETEND I'm somewhere else. I want to BE somewhere else. I just want to be left alone, but I'm tired of feeling alone all the time.
God I hate the way I feel right now. It's like that nervous, sick, tight, icky feeling down in my stomach. It's like I know something bads gonna happen but I don't know what, I just feel it comming. I hate that.
My pop is just being a jack ass the last few days. He just gets in these moods sometimes where he'll be like a whiney little 2 yr old & pout & sulk & throw little tantrums about shit. Shit with me & Gabrielle is still a fucking rollercoaster as always..Here lately we haven't been arguing about anything, except our normal little arguments about random things, but today it got bad. 
She threatens to just leave when she gets really pissy or if I say something that really gets to her. I've had about enough. Either go on gettin on or stop making these little threats. I just kinda turn my head 7 laugh when she does it but she's going to catch me in the right mood one day & I'm just going to say "Fine. Go..". My mom is the only one that I really get along with & we get into it about SOMETHING about one a week. GAH!!
I need a vacation! Me being stuck here is seriously starting to work on me now...I try to just use this all the push me harder in therapy & in life general but I feel like I'm at that breaking point.
I really feel like I'm at my breaking point.
God I hate the way I feel right now. It's like that nervous, sick, tight, icky feeling down in my stomach. It's like I know something bads gonna happen but I don't know what, I just feel it comming. I hate that.
My pop is just being a jack ass the last few days. He just gets in these moods sometimes where he'll be like a whiney little 2 yr old & pout & sulk & throw little tantrums about shit. Shit with me & Gabrielle is still a fucking rollercoaster as always..Here lately we haven't been arguing about anything, except our normal little arguments about random things, but today it got bad.
She threatens to just leave when she gets really pissy or if I say something that really gets to her. I've had about enough. Either go on gettin on or stop making these little threats. I just kinda turn my head 7 laugh when she does it but she's going to catch me in the right mood one day & I'm just going to say "Fine. Go..". My mom is the only one that I really get along with & we get into it about SOMETHING about one a week. GAH!!
I need a vacation! Me being stuck here is seriously starting to work on me now...I try to just use this all the push me harder in therapy & in life general but I feel like I'm at that breaking point.
I really feel like I'm at my breaking point.
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I wish I didn't know exactly how you feel right now.
Buck up, pup. Things can only get better...right?
Kisses