People on here piss me the hell off sometimes! Mostly the boards really.
I know alot of you heard about the stupid software that sony/bmg is putting on their cd's now. It basically prevents you from burning multiple copies & mixed cd's. Well I bought the new Santana cd & I (like a dumbass) installed the software, not thinking about it really.. So I posted a thread for some help on taking it off my comp.. THIS is the help I got... Yeah thanx guys!
Oh yay!! My second class starts today!! It's that dreaded online speech class. So I have to talk into a damn webcam the entire time! Grrrreeaat! You know I'm siked.
Other than than that ...
Oh yeah I have to share this!!
LONG ENTRY AHEAD!
I just had to get it off my chest!
Anyway, over the weekend I tried to call this guy Jeff that Gabrielle had been sleeping with. I just felt like I needed to get some shit off my chest. Well he never answered his phone. Then yesterday I'm sitting here & my phone rings,,
me*Hello*
jeff *Hey is this Donald?"
me "yeah this is him"
jeff *hey man this is Jeff M*$$%#
I was caught off guard suince iy was sat. I had called him.
jeff * Yeah I saw you tried callin me.
me*Yeah, yeah I did*
jeff* I kinda figured you'd be calling me& I figured you have some stuff to say.*
me*Yeah, yeah I do..*
--now this is normally where I would go ballistic & snap out BUT I didn't..
Why? I'm not real sure I think it was just the shock him calling me I guess. So he carries on for 5-10 minutes about how his relationship wit his wife & how he really doesn't want to break her heart, yada yada yada. I just told hime like I told Gabrielle..GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!! So then he had to go because he needed to get back to work. He wanted to continue the conversation later after he got off work. I just told him I didn't see the conversation going anywhere but my getting pissed off.
So he calls me back about an hour later..
What the hell?? ---- once AGAIN this is normally the part where I get PISSED & SHOOT MY MOUTH OFF!! Again I didn't. He tried to explain hisself again & I just stopped him & was like
me *Look man you need to either be with your wife or break it off. There's no way to tell your wife "hey i want a divorce" and NOT hurt her. It's just not possible." "You obviously don't honestly feel bad about you & Gabrielle or if you got caught because you were telling your friends about it. So now not only have you strung Gabrielle along for 6-7 months, lied to your family, your wife & everyone else but your just making the hole deeper & harder to get out of. It's time to step up, do what you gotta do & do right by your wife & it's not fair to Gabrielle because she's been thinking you'd leave your wife by now & you still haven't..*
jeff *I know, I know man you're right but I really don't wanna break my wifes heart. She really is a great girl & she stuck around & waited for me when I was in Iraq & I really don't want to hurt her. Plus I'm afraid of what she's do to herself. (apparently she's on zoloft & she's a little bit of a cutter, more for attention than anything I think, but you never know.) She's just become more like a friend now.*
me *That doesn't matter, she's your WIFE. If the fellings have changed then you need to suck it up & move on & if you're really that worried about what she might do then sit down with your families & tell them how you feel & that you're worried about her. It's a prety black & white situation.*
Jeff *Yeah but there's some concerns there too.. She kinda cut herself last weekend when she over heard me talking to a friend & saying me & her probably wouldn't last much longer. Nothing big just enough to get my attention.*
me * Then you need to work them out... It's not fair to Gabrielle & it's for DAMN SURE to your wife. You can't have your cake & eat it too. All these lies & shit don't help anyone but you to feel better at that moment. If you think what she did last weekend was bad what if she found out about you & Gabrielle?? You better think about that shit*
Jeff *You're right, you're right. Gabrielle's a great girl I've known her since before me &..*
me * I know the whole story... From the sounds of tings you never wanted to marry this girl in the first place so why the hell did you??*
Jeff *I didn't want to break her heart & I just..I don't know I felt like I had to finish what I started*
--and no she wasn't pregnant--
me *You shoulda stopped right there*
Jeff *I know & the stuff with me & Gabrielle just kinda happened. We didn't plan on it.*
me *Yeah it just hapened for 6-7 months. That's not just happening. Trust me I've read in deatail everything that happened up until the last day she was here. I know enough that this whole situation just disgusts me. Plus I know you where calling her before you got married & after you got married. So this has been a long time comming. So this shit needs to stop & you need to concentrait on your wife It just disgusts me & i never though I would have the opinion of Gabrielle that I do now.*
Jeff * I know I need to deal with it & when the time comes I will..
me *This isn't one of those things you can't just put off. *
Jeff * I know*
me *All I'm saying is get yourshit together man, just get it together!*
Jeff * Let me ask you something. So where you & Gabrielle together when all this happened or what?*
me *We weren't "together" but we were TRYING to work things out & she was still staying here, sleeping in my bed.*
Jeff * O.K.. because all I had to go on was what she said. She said she still really cared about you but there was nothing there.*
me *Regardless it still doesn't make all this right.
--By this point he finally realizes this conversation isn't really helping much..
Jeff *I'm getting to my house & I live in basically a ran/shed...
me *I know.*
Jeff *Well I don't have much else to say but I'm sorry you got hurt in all this & just sorry man. I really didn't mean for all this to happen.*
me * Well at this point I really just feel like this conversation was just an attempt to smooth things over so I wouldn't say anything to anyone. If it is it's not gonna work. I'm just as pissed right now as i was the day I found out. I've had a few weeks to sit back & wonder what I wanted to do with all this stuff. The ONLY reason I have let this all out is out of respect for your wife, BUT I still feel like she needs to know.*
Jeff * Well man I mean you're your own person & your gonna do what ever so..*
me * And I really don't think this stuff with you & Gabrielle is over.*
Jeff *For good or for now or what?*
me *Either/or. I just think you guys might play it safe for awhile & then slowly start back in.*
Jeff *I haven't talked to Gabrielle in..well since all this happened a couple weeks ago..*
me *Well that's how it needs to stay. Me & Gabrielle will most likely NEVER be back together & our relationship will probably be speaking terms at best. I will tell you this, if I do find out that you start messing around with, see or talk to Gabrielle again you don't want another phone call from me. If this shit is done you need to just leave her alone. Knowing what I know now makes it alot easier for me to find out things now.*
Jeff *I'm not. I'm just gonna work on things with my wife.*
me *That's what you need to do. If I find out otherwise I really won't hesitate to let everyone know... As far as what the consequences are for you & Gabrielle, I could care less. You made your bed , now it's time to lye in it. As far as i'm concerned I wash my hands of the whole deal, unless I fin out something & need to involve myself again.*
Jeff *O.K... Well I hope to not get another phone call from you then*
me *Let's hope not."
Jeff *Well then Don just take car man & umm just have a good life man.*
me * Yeah.*
I just left a few things out there for him to ponder. IF he caught on. Like the fact I already knew about his wife's mental state & that's why I haven't let it all out YET. Or the fact I know all about him & Gabrielle seeing & talking to each other before & after his wedding, & the fact he never wanted to get married. Or that i know where he lives... See there's already those little bread crumbs that him & Gabrielle are leaving behind in their conversations... How did he know for sure that was my # on his phone & what did he tell his wife when he didn't answer?? IF he was with his wife... This shit is overwhen I say it's over... Him & Gabrielle just keep stressing the fact that his wife might hurt herself. I wonder how much is real & how much is bullshit so I won't say anything..hhmm.. I was over this & still am in some respects but in other ways I'm far from over it & far from done with it!!
I know alot of you heard about the stupid software that sony/bmg is putting on their cd's now. It basically prevents you from burning multiple copies & mixed cd's. Well I bought the new Santana cd & I (like a dumbass) installed the software, not thinking about it really.. So I posted a thread for some help on taking it off my comp.. THIS is the help I got... Yeah thanx guys!
Oh yay!! My second class starts today!! It's that dreaded online speech class. So I have to talk into a damn webcam the entire time! Grrrreeaat! You know I'm siked.
Other than than that ...
Oh yeah I have to share this!!
LONG ENTRY AHEAD!
I just had to get it off my chest!
Anyway, over the weekend I tried to call this guy Jeff that Gabrielle had been sleeping with. I just felt like I needed to get some shit off my chest. Well he never answered his phone. Then yesterday I'm sitting here & my phone rings,,
me*Hello*
jeff *Hey is this Donald?"
me "yeah this is him"
jeff *hey man this is Jeff M*$$%#
I was caught off guard suince iy was sat. I had called him.
jeff * Yeah I saw you tried callin me.
me*Yeah, yeah I did*
jeff* I kinda figured you'd be calling me& I figured you have some stuff to say.*
me*Yeah, yeah I do..*
--now this is normally where I would go ballistic & snap out BUT I didn't..
Why? I'm not real sure I think it was just the shock him calling me I guess. So he carries on for 5-10 minutes about how his relationship wit his wife & how he really doesn't want to break her heart, yada yada yada. I just told hime like I told Gabrielle..GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!! So then he had to go because he needed to get back to work. He wanted to continue the conversation later after he got off work. I just told him I didn't see the conversation going anywhere but my getting pissed off.
So he calls me back about an hour later..
What the hell?? ---- once AGAIN this is normally the part where I get PISSED & SHOOT MY MOUTH OFF!! Again I didn't. He tried to explain hisself again & I just stopped him & was like
me *Look man you need to either be with your wife or break it off. There's no way to tell your wife "hey i want a divorce" and NOT hurt her. It's just not possible." "You obviously don't honestly feel bad about you & Gabrielle or if you got caught because you were telling your friends about it. So now not only have you strung Gabrielle along for 6-7 months, lied to your family, your wife & everyone else but your just making the hole deeper & harder to get out of. It's time to step up, do what you gotta do & do right by your wife & it's not fair to Gabrielle because she's been thinking you'd leave your wife by now & you still haven't..*
jeff *I know, I know man you're right but I really don't wanna break my wifes heart. She really is a great girl & she stuck around & waited for me when I was in Iraq & I really don't want to hurt her. Plus I'm afraid of what she's do to herself. (apparently she's on zoloft & she's a little bit of a cutter, more for attention than anything I think, but you never know.) She's just become more like a friend now.*
me *That doesn't matter, she's your WIFE. If the fellings have changed then you need to suck it up & move on & if you're really that worried about what she might do then sit down with your families & tell them how you feel & that you're worried about her. It's a prety black & white situation.*
Jeff *Yeah but there's some concerns there too.. She kinda cut herself last weekend when she over heard me talking to a friend & saying me & her probably wouldn't last much longer. Nothing big just enough to get my attention.*
me * Then you need to work them out... It's not fair to Gabrielle & it's for DAMN SURE to your wife. You can't have your cake & eat it too. All these lies & shit don't help anyone but you to feel better at that moment. If you think what she did last weekend was bad what if she found out about you & Gabrielle?? You better think about that shit*
Jeff *You're right, you're right. Gabrielle's a great girl I've known her since before me &..*
me * I know the whole story... From the sounds of tings you never wanted to marry this girl in the first place so why the hell did you??*
Jeff *I didn't want to break her heart & I just..I don't know I felt like I had to finish what I started*
--and no she wasn't pregnant--
me *You shoulda stopped right there*
Jeff *I know & the stuff with me & Gabrielle just kinda happened. We didn't plan on it.*
me *Yeah it just hapened for 6-7 months. That's not just happening. Trust me I've read in deatail everything that happened up until the last day she was here. I know enough that this whole situation just disgusts me. Plus I know you where calling her before you got married & after you got married. So this has been a long time comming. So this shit needs to stop & you need to concentrait on your wife It just disgusts me & i never though I would have the opinion of Gabrielle that I do now.*
Jeff * I know I need to deal with it & when the time comes I will..
me *This isn't one of those things you can't just put off. *
Jeff * I know*
me *All I'm saying is get yourshit together man, just get it together!*
Jeff * Let me ask you something. So where you & Gabrielle together when all this happened or what?*
me *We weren't "together" but we were TRYING to work things out & she was still staying here, sleeping in my bed.*
Jeff * O.K.. because all I had to go on was what she said. She said she still really cared about you but there was nothing there.*
me *Regardless it still doesn't make all this right.
--By this point he finally realizes this conversation isn't really helping much..
Jeff *I'm getting to my house & I live in basically a ran/shed...
me *I know.*
Jeff *Well I don't have much else to say but I'm sorry you got hurt in all this & just sorry man. I really didn't mean for all this to happen.*
me * Well at this point I really just feel like this conversation was just an attempt to smooth things over so I wouldn't say anything to anyone. If it is it's not gonna work. I'm just as pissed right now as i was the day I found out. I've had a few weeks to sit back & wonder what I wanted to do with all this stuff. The ONLY reason I have let this all out is out of respect for your wife, BUT I still feel like she needs to know.*
Jeff * Well man I mean you're your own person & your gonna do what ever so..*
me * And I really don't think this stuff with you & Gabrielle is over.*
Jeff *For good or for now or what?*
me *Either/or. I just think you guys might play it safe for awhile & then slowly start back in.*
Jeff *I haven't talked to Gabrielle in..well since all this happened a couple weeks ago..*
me *Well that's how it needs to stay. Me & Gabrielle will most likely NEVER be back together & our relationship will probably be speaking terms at best. I will tell you this, if I do find out that you start messing around with, see or talk to Gabrielle again you don't want another phone call from me. If this shit is done you need to just leave her alone. Knowing what I know now makes it alot easier for me to find out things now.*
Jeff *I'm not. I'm just gonna work on things with my wife.*
me *That's what you need to do. If I find out otherwise I really won't hesitate to let everyone know... As far as what the consequences are for you & Gabrielle, I could care less. You made your bed , now it's time to lye in it. As far as i'm concerned I wash my hands of the whole deal, unless I fin out something & need to involve myself again.*
Jeff *O.K... Well I hope to not get another phone call from you then*
me *Let's hope not."
Jeff *Well then Don just take car man & umm just have a good life man.*
me * Yeah.*
I just left a few things out there for him to ponder. IF he caught on. Like the fact I already knew about his wife's mental state & that's why I haven't let it all out YET. Or the fact I know all about him & Gabrielle seeing & talking to each other before & after his wedding, & the fact he never wanted to get married. Or that i know where he lives... See there's already those little bread crumbs that him & Gabrielle are leaving behind in their conversations... How did he know for sure that was my # on his phone & what did he tell his wife when he didn't answer?? IF he was with his wife... This shit is overwhen I say it's over... Him & Gabrielle just keep stressing the fact that his wife might hurt herself. I wonder how much is real & how much is bullshit so I won't say anything..hhmm.. I was over this & still am in some respects but in other ways I'm far from over it & far from done with it!!
marlamay:
wow i didnt read this whole thing but : i sure wish my speech class had been on webcam. that would make me so much less nervous 
cyrus:
we're working on it. i think we're entering the ernie ball battle of the bands to play warped tour. since we're not signed we are paying for everything ourselves, which makes it hard to get out of LA. no one owns a van or anything. it's just one of those things we're working on. trust me... we want to come!