dirrrty

It's so weird..

Being in His apartment and he's not here..

Having no one to call but His friends (who are AMAZING PEOPLE! Don't get me wrong! But still, he is the one with the stong connection and bond with these folks, not me.. )

I bought a bicycle the other day. I'm gonna take it out tomorrow and go joy-riding. Maybe discover something new.. or a nice place near by thats tranquil so I can meditate and worship nature..

It's 3:18am.. I'm dreading going to sleep.. He wont be there and it makes me so sad..

I've never had such a hard time making friends in a new town.. I guess it's just taking me a lot longer here. I have to adjust that this is not California.. this is not NYC.. this is most definately not anything like Europe.

Is this really the place I want to be?

All questions are answered in time, I suppose. For now.. I should sleep and stop rambling...