Sporadic updating is really starting to get lame. I don't get the chance to really sit down and read what's going on with everyone else and write meaningful responses. Bear with me for a while longer people - I'm getting much better health-wise, and I'll be returning to a form of work relatively soon. I've made the decision not to return to the old job though. I'll be looking for something that's more locally based so I can return home on a regular basis. Its just too risky and stressful on my body to be away for such extended periods of time.
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In other news though, I had a blast down in Calgary for the New Year's party. Since giving up drinking, I really haven't had the chance to get proper fucked up. Luckily I brought a half-ounce of the green stuff with me, so that was more than enough to get nice and toasty.
I'm still a little put-out that the only time my lips made contact with somebody else's was when the awesome atrasties was saying goodbye - no midnight kiss, and no hooking up with anyone for dark-corner-making-out either. Bah. What has new year's celebrating come to, I say?
Consequently, I've begun to cycle back to my previous earlier moodiness and loneliness of the summer. I'm convinced its linked to jealousy - I see many of my close friends and acquaintances seemingly happily involved with others and I begin to ache for that same sort of companionship and familiarity with someone of my own. Admittedly, getting laid would be a great thing too, but its the simple things that I really miss. The last lady friend I had was really only bout the sex, and I never got my fill of the closeness and comfort that I desire. You know, the sensationg of falling asleep beside another warm body, and feeling that same body 8 hours later when the sun begins to creep through the window. Or curling up on a couch under a warm blanket and marathoning movies or tv series till unnatural hours of the morning. Cooking dinner for two, not one. Bringing over soup when they're sick.
I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. Just gotta let things happen on their own, I know, but there's gotta be somewhere that I can vent, can't I?
ciao for a while
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stealing from somebody else, my new year's resolutions:
- succeed in making the road trip to cali and back this spring
- get back to 100 % health and stay that way (finally)
- making the no-alcohol a permanent lifestyle choice
- get back into karate
- go back to school, regardless of income
how bout you guys?
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In other news though, I had a blast down in Calgary for the New Year's party. Since giving up drinking, I really haven't had the chance to get proper fucked up. Luckily I brought a half-ounce of the green stuff with me, so that was more than enough to get nice and toasty.
I'm still a little put-out that the only time my lips made contact with somebody else's was when the awesome atrasties was saying goodbye - no midnight kiss, and no hooking up with anyone for dark-corner-making-out either. Bah. What has new year's celebrating come to, I say?
Consequently, I've begun to cycle back to my previous earlier moodiness and loneliness of the summer. I'm convinced its linked to jealousy - I see many of my close friends and acquaintances seemingly happily involved with others and I begin to ache for that same sort of companionship and familiarity with someone of my own. Admittedly, getting laid would be a great thing too, but its the simple things that I really miss. The last lady friend I had was really only bout the sex, and I never got my fill of the closeness and comfort that I desire. You know, the sensationg of falling asleep beside another warm body, and feeling that same body 8 hours later when the sun begins to creep through the window. Or curling up on a couch under a warm blanket and marathoning movies or tv series till unnatural hours of the morning. Cooking dinner for two, not one. Bringing over soup when they're sick.
I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. Just gotta let things happen on their own, I know, but there's gotta be somewhere that I can vent, can't I?
ciao for a while
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stealing from somebody else, my new year's resolutions:
- succeed in making the road trip to cali and back this spring
- get back to 100 % health and stay that way (finally)
- making the no-alcohol a permanent lifestyle choice
- get back into karate
- go back to school, regardless of income
how bout you guys?
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Oh... and zenFish is wrong there. I do remember kissing him on New Years.