well, i think this is the entry you wanted me to read..
it's strange because i went through the same thing as you...i lost some family members that were very dear to me...the father of my son& lover of 5&1/2 years broke up with me and to top it off i found out he was living a total double life, and i too suffer from seizure disorder. i had four suicide attempts& was in a mental institution for nearly a month...my last suicide i took a bottle of tranquillizers...my father found me& took me to emergency...the doctor's said if he hadn't found me i would have died.
i think depression is something that comes slowly at first then sudden...i think it leaves the same way....slowly at first then sudden.
yes, many people don't connect to an emotional pain...most people only believe waht they see, unless of course you've been through it.
On another note, seriously, the DVD was very nice but totally unnecessary: it is a very nice thought, but seriously, internet friendship is just about swapping jokes and experiences for me. I'll quite happily get to you know you first, you can speak to some of the other UK members and become more a part of things. Okay?
I hope you are sleeping well.
But it certainly has made this week easier to get through. And it'll be on in the hire car tomorrow.