"I'm not like you I jus fuck up"
I had bad dreams, bad bad dreams.. i woke from each one in a sweat and now my heart is racing.My head is itchy and I'm panicking.. I think I know why but I'm not sure.. I went to sleep this morning at 11am with thoughts of suicide running thru my head, i turned both of my phones off, locked the front door and lay in bed considering how easy it would be. The trouble is the last overdose i took i was really sick with so when thinking of doing it that way i jus think of being sick. I'm writing this for a release.. I dont know whether i want to..
I have a tension headache.. makes me sick to fuck, pain killers don't help.
stinging thru short tears, i cant feel anymore than a measure will let me. how to feel when your body shakes uncontrolably. where to look when the room is covered in blood. avert your eyes dear.. we wouldnt want u to have nightmares.
anyone car to join me for a drink tonight? im going to get some vodka and for a change cloudy lemonade.. mmness.
fuck up!
I had bad dreams, bad bad dreams.. i woke from each one in a sweat and now my heart is racing.My head is itchy and I'm panicking.. I think I know why but I'm not sure.. I went to sleep this morning at 11am with thoughts of suicide running thru my head, i turned both of my phones off, locked the front door and lay in bed considering how easy it would be. The trouble is the last overdose i took i was really sick with so when thinking of doing it that way i jus think of being sick. I'm writing this for a release.. I dont know whether i want to..
I have a tension headache.. makes me sick to fuck, pain killers don't help.
stinging thru short tears, i cant feel anymore than a measure will let me. how to feel when your body shakes uncontrolably. where to look when the room is covered in blood. avert your eyes dear.. we wouldnt want u to have nightmares.
anyone car to join me for a drink tonight? im going to get some vodka and for a change cloudy lemonade.. mmness.
fuck up!
Let me know...<3
XOXO
~JAx