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"What is that? Good question. I am pretty pissed right now, so this probably won't even provide an answer.
To create a basis, what exactly do I expect from a friend? Personally, my ties to people are supposedly 'intense yet unstable' - as everyone claims, I am pretty indifferent to most everybody on this planet, so if I like you, its an honor because it means I see a strong character, some depth, some substance, the ability to kill this indifference. And, you're fun.
I don't like this to be dissapointed.
If you've made me your friend, you got someone who's alright, perhaps a little strenuous, but also just about the most honest and defenitaly loyal person at your side.
And this is the only thing I ask in return.
You can do whatever the fuck you want, you don't owe me anything, I'm fine with not hearing from you for ages, as long as I know whats going on halfway. I'm the last person to judge your actions. I thought being a 'friend' postulates a certain amount of reliance.
* So why are your words and actions contradictory?
* Why did you offer your assistance and then dissapear? You know I'm a big girl and I can take care of things myself, and I hate accepting help. So it's not like I'm straining your kindness or some shit.
* Why do you communicate with me indirectly? You're entitled to your own decisions, why not tell it to my face?
* If you can't tolerate my actions and are doing something that you can't deal with for me, why don't you just open your mouth? That's all it takes.
* I was bending over backwards to tear my own ass open for you not too long ago, and just to be melodramatic - it seems like every time I try to be nice, it just fucks me over. And then I realize that the behaviour that comes naturally to me is really the best.
Yeah, so who knows why exactly, it may be absolutely nothing, but - I can't ask you, since you seem to avoid me. Is that necessary? Am I boring, scary?
* Why do you not answer the phone, nor respond to emails or any other attempt resembling any communication? I am not your girlfriend, I am not a stalker, I'm not bombarding you, what is your problem?
Granted, I am hypersensitive towards your honesty or lack thereof until time delivers proof if it. This keeps me from wasting my time. But just because you're paranoid doesn't mean people aren't trying to bullshit you sometimes. Don't fucking try to be clever.
This is probably nothing, but I can't deny my irritation.[...]I'm not gonna knife you for doing whatever you're doing, all I'm doing is asking. It's not an attack, I just want you to take a stance. Just a "Sorry, I was busy with ___" or "I was preoccupied by my current fuck" or "My cat died, I'm so sad" is completely fine, as long as it's true! Even if its not a good reason, Ill probably be like Oh, ok. just cos I see where you're coming from.
Bullshitting anyone who asks to be bullshitted is fine, but either you are a friend and you draw the line where I stand, or youre not. Im fine with either.
If I did anything to screw you that Im not aware of, why dont you just say so?"
this is a quote from temper.
just replapce "girl" and "guy" whenever needed. and then you got it. saved a lot of typing, thank you temper.
"What is that? Good question. I am pretty pissed right now, so this probably won't even provide an answer.
To create a basis, what exactly do I expect from a friend? Personally, my ties to people are supposedly 'intense yet unstable' - as everyone claims, I am pretty indifferent to most everybody on this planet, so if I like you, its an honor because it means I see a strong character, some depth, some substance, the ability to kill this indifference. And, you're fun.
I don't like this to be dissapointed.
If you've made me your friend, you got someone who's alright, perhaps a little strenuous, but also just about the most honest and defenitaly loyal person at your side.
And this is the only thing I ask in return.
You can do whatever the fuck you want, you don't owe me anything, I'm fine with not hearing from you for ages, as long as I know whats going on halfway. I'm the last person to judge your actions. I thought being a 'friend' postulates a certain amount of reliance.
* So why are your words and actions contradictory?
* Why did you offer your assistance and then dissapear? You know I'm a big girl and I can take care of things myself, and I hate accepting help. So it's not like I'm straining your kindness or some shit.
* Why do you communicate with me indirectly? You're entitled to your own decisions, why not tell it to my face?
* If you can't tolerate my actions and are doing something that you can't deal with for me, why don't you just open your mouth? That's all it takes.
* I was bending over backwards to tear my own ass open for you not too long ago, and just to be melodramatic - it seems like every time I try to be nice, it just fucks me over. And then I realize that the behaviour that comes naturally to me is really the best.
Yeah, so who knows why exactly, it may be absolutely nothing, but - I can't ask you, since you seem to avoid me. Is that necessary? Am I boring, scary?
* Why do you not answer the phone, nor respond to emails or any other attempt resembling any communication? I am not your girlfriend, I am not a stalker, I'm not bombarding you, what is your problem?
Granted, I am hypersensitive towards your honesty or lack thereof until time delivers proof if it. This keeps me from wasting my time. But just because you're paranoid doesn't mean people aren't trying to bullshit you sometimes. Don't fucking try to be clever.
This is probably nothing, but I can't deny my irritation.[...]I'm not gonna knife you for doing whatever you're doing, all I'm doing is asking. It's not an attack, I just want you to take a stance. Just a "Sorry, I was busy with ___" or "I was preoccupied by my current fuck" or "My cat died, I'm so sad" is completely fine, as long as it's true! Even if its not a good reason, Ill probably be like Oh, ok. just cos I see where you're coming from.
Bullshitting anyone who asks to be bullshitted is fine, but either you are a friend and you draw the line where I stand, or youre not. Im fine with either.
If I did anything to screw you that Im not aware of, why dont you just say so?"
this is a quote from temper.
just replapce "girl" and "guy" whenever needed. and then you got it. saved a lot of typing, thank you temper.