dickiebamboo

So, I have a problem.

There is a girl, who I think is unbelievable. I love her in fact. But, I got drunk, we had a huge argument and we broke up. The other problem I have, is that I didn't listen, and we let ourselves get ahead of where we should have been at that time. We got engaged, I moved in, but it became like a goldfish bowl & I smothered her. Now my problem is this..

I love her, and I am so unhappy not being with her. I can see with the virtue of hindsight how we went too quick with things, i.e. moving in together. All I want is to try again, and take things slowly, not see each other 24/7. But, I don't know if there is any of the same feeling in the other direction. I don't know weather to wait, which I would gladly do if there was some chance, or weather to move on.

I hate this being the only thing I get to think of every day. I could handle not seeing her if i knew one way or the other, but I am struggling with being in between.

I wish someone, somewhere could give me the answers.