diaphanous

Man, I suck at this updating thing. Sigh. Oh well.

I'm breaking it off with my bf tonight. After our break, which was well needed by all, he's gotten even worse on the "you are my everything" front. I hate that kind of pressure. I tolerate it....badly. And the fact of the matter is, I don't have the stamina to keep going through this with him until the unknown future point where he's "better". I have no idea what better looks like or when it's going to happen. One of my friends said something to the effect of 'for better or for worse'....but I don't see a ring on my hand.

I think I'd be better supporting him through this in the context of a friend and not as his girlfriend. The relationship has centered entirely around this crap.

I hate to sound like an unsupportive bitch, but....I've supported him entirely for the past 4 months, and I can't do it anymore.

Part of me is sad that it didn't work out. I think I would have liked to marry him, and in the former stability of our relationship, I'd have said that it was almost guaranteed. But I can't commit myself right now to someone who is having trouble getting himself better. Marriage doesn't solve all. It doesn't really solve anything.