i wish i never made this fucking move at all, worst idea ever, it's so seriously destabilized my mental health that anything good hasn't been worth all this pain.
i just want to run away and be left alone for a long, long time.
I just read you post in the bipolar group, if you need to chat, you can im me at jennyjenny5000 on aim. I am sorry you are having such a difficult time and I hope you get feeling better soon. You are so right about the medicine being a roller coaster, I am switching meds right now also and it is frustrating. Well dear if you need someone to talk to I am here.
jenny
I'm angry at the world today...angry that I have to feel like this, angry that I have to deal with this bullshit every single FUCKING day for the rest of my FUCKING life, angry that I feel so alone now, angry that I am so diligent with meds and therapy and getting "rewarded" for it by puking and wooziness and stumbling into... Read More
For those of you who are new to the world of psychiatric medications, a potential severe side effect of some of the newer antipsychotics is a condition called akathisia. Click on the spoiler below to read more about it, but continue reading if you don't.
Man did I pick the wrong day to quit smoking - what could go wrong, did go wrong - the husband of one of my employees got arrested, another is apparently so unable to get her kids lives together that they're not enrolled in school and strangely enough the truancy people are banging down the door. And, my mom got picked for jury duty (the... Read More
My time in FL is getting better and better - I've been busting my ass at work and it shows, business is thoroughly booming this week and we had a record week last week but the more important thing is that my mood is stable and happy...and I've actually got a social life going on now!
I went to the beach with Andrea yesterday and... Read More
Well I found out one of the more interesting side effects of my medication has been that I get ridiculously light headed, but apparently that's temporary. It was really bad this morning, to the point where I was laying on the floor of my office with my feet up on the chair. But I'm much better now.
Ok well it's Monday and I'm home! I got released from the booby hatch last night. I'm at work this morning, then going to the beach this afternoon.
I feel SO much better. They admitted me Friday afternoon to St. Joseph's Psychiatric Care Center and it was the smartest decision I made in awhile. My new psych, Dr. Feldman, rocks and he switched my medications... Read More
quick update....the horrible restlessness + agitation + depression + (now) suicidal ideation has led me to the decision to commit myself to the psychiatric care center at st. joseph's here in tampa. i tried doing something about it tonight at a different hospital (mixed states FTL) but it was a resounding failure in that i didn't see anyone at all because head cases apparently aren't... Read More
