devilish

so today, my ex husband deployed. this his first, and even with all we have been through... it was hard to go through. i never want to do it again. it did make me realize that when our marriage was at a good point, how much i really did love him. the hardest part was watching him walk away. you just have no promises in...
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"myself'

i play a role, cant you tell.
or is it because, i play it so well.
hidden behind an invisable mask.
you never though, never bothered to ask.
the things i see, the things i say.
the outstanding role i play everyday
day by day, i am not me.
im only the person you want me to be.
maybe one day, ill do the...
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I will meet you in some place
Where the light lends itself to soft repose
I will let you undress me
But I warn you, I have thorns like any rose
And you could hurt me with your bare hands
You could hurt me using the sharp end of what you say
But I am lost to you now
There's no amount of reason to...
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feb 8, 2005

today is a better day. i want to thank everyone for the warm welcome. IT ROCKED! just wanted to say goodmorning to everyone and ill create a more detailed journal later

feb 07, 2005


so im here in germany. i havent talked to my family in god knows how long. my soon to be ex husband is in the states to see his family before he deploys. the only thing i have right now to keep me sane through the whole thing is mel. i sometimes wonder how i got here, and i come up with...
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hey roxxeekitty,

thanks for the SG profile! i love it... now lets post incriminating pictures of the boys