despairfactor

So the BF has been nagging at me for the past couple of days to update....
HERE YOU GO HUN! AN UPDATE JUST FOR YOU!
~~~ I don't see why he needs me to update... he could just, oh, I dunno, ask me questions, and I'd tell him everything that I would write in here....

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Anywayes..... 15 days without an update... I dunno why... I just don't feel the urge to update every day anymore.
It might be also because I've been taking a summer class since the 6th, and therefore am at school when I normally would be updating.
But lately, I just wanna look at the naked girls... which is weird, cuz I joined the site for the journals... normally, people join for the ladies, and stay b/c of the journals.
I'm backwards.
(I kinda sound like a horny old man there)

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Sooooo... I do have a lot of stuff to update, but it would take too much. So here's an interesting story for you all

I got fired from my one job. Okay, so TECHNICALLY, I quit... but it was under forced circumstances. I was double booked at both jobs, (Bluenotes and Montanas) so I tried to get it off at M, but no one could cover me, so I called my one boss @ B, and told him that I could only work until 4:30... for some reason, he thought that I meant I couldn't work AT ALL, and so he was really ticked off with me, and called the head boss and told her that I couldn't work at all, and that I chose M over them.
So he told me that I had a meeting with my head boss the next day...
I went in to see them on Friday, and D(the head boss) said that she wanted my two weeks... then I had to explain to her that I never told K(the other boss) that I couldn't work at all... so she seemed happy with that... although she put me on this MAJOR guilt trip, telling me that it just hurts her personally when she bends over backwards for us, and we screw her over (although, personally, I don't see how I screwed her over, b/c I told her I could work till 4:20 anyways, and that I was only covering that shift (yeah, I wasn't even supposed to work it in the first place) to do a favour for her)... anywayes, we sorted it out, and she said, this better not happen again, or else I will need your two weeks.
Then she says, do you know you work on Sun. And, I'm so screwed now, cuz I was supposed to work at M that day too. So I tell her this, and basically she tells me that I better get it changed at M, or I have to give her my two weeks.
So I went home, and thought about it a bit... and said fuck it... I don't even like it there anywayes, so I called her back, told her I couldn't get it off, so she says she wants my two weeks.

*PHEW*
Now... if you ask me... this DOES NOT seem like bending over backwards for me.
1.) This has never happened before... M made a slip up, and schedualed me by accident for a day I couldn't work... if I had talked to them, I know it wouldn't happen again (although I did chose to not talk to them, mainly cuz I HATE bluenotes... FUCK YOU BIOTCHES!!)
2.) I'm a reliable employee, yet at the first chance she gets, D jumps at the chance to have me not work there
3.) She doesn't seem to care.

I dunno... I think it's really stupid, and this story does not explain it justly... just understand that my boss at Bluenotes is a wench, and I'm so glad that I don't work there anymore
And MB.... I don't care what you say, she IS a wench, and if you were in my situation, you would understand, regardless of the fact that you were a manager there.... IT STILL SUCKS FOR ME.... regardless of whether it sucks for D or not. As the bf, you should take my side... not hers....

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*surface values.... a shallow stream... no depth. Won't let me in, too afraid... I don't want to be let in. Can reach each other, but not yet, not ever? too afraid*

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It made me nervous to walk into that place again after two years. I felt sick to my stomach, but good at the same time.
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Lyric
"Still miss that old skool love, not quite that do right love, your love was fine, never on time, you're steady on my mind. Still miss that old skool love, not quite the right one love, I don't want you back, but I'll never ever love the same way again.
Now here I am starting over with a new love, he's a real man, with a good heart, he's more than enough... but there I go again, thinking about your lips while I'm kissing his.... still miss that old skool love... I don't want you back, but I'll never ever love the same way again" ~~ Divine Brown - Old Skool Love