derby138

Last night was kinda fun. My friends and I went over to Laguna Beach to have a good old fashion bon fire. We roasted marshmallows (and Bagels) and sat around and talked. It took my mind off things for a while. On the way back we listened to some nin. That helped a little. I think we're going again tonight...would anyone care to join?

Today kinda sucks. Why can't I get out of this rut? Its not as bad as before, but its still around. I wish I was bartending right about now. I wish my bestfriend would call me right now to say hi. ok, well I think I'll go eat something. Maybe I'll feel a little better afterwards.

"i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt"

NIN "hurt"