I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY...AT LEAST MORE THEN HE WAS IN THE PAST!! I TRY SO HARD TO FIND A GOOD BALANCE FOR HIM THAT I JUST END UP MAKING HIM MAD EVENTUALLY...I LOVE HIM MORE THEN HE WILL EVER KNOW...I KNOW HE WANTS TO CUT AND I THINK IT WILL DO HIM GOOD..IF IT's NOT TO DEEP!!! IT' S TIME TO GET THE BABY S ROOM READY AND I HATE FOR HIM TO HAVE TO PUT HIS MUSIC STUFF AWAY...I WISH ARE PLACE WAS BIGGER BUT AT LEAST WE HAVE A PLACE. I WANT SO BADLY FOR HIM TO HAVE AN OUTLET SO HE DOESNT FEEL SO BOXED IN. I KNOW ITS MY FAULT THAT HE GETS ANGRY..I FEEL THAT I NEED SO MUCH OF HIS ATTENTION...THAT HE DOESN't HAVE TIME FOR HIMSELF....I TRY TO DO EVERYTHING TO TAKE PRESSURE OFF HIM...BUT HE STILL GETS ANGRY. I JUST WANT TO BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM!!!
