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I keep dreaming about natural disasters... floods, earthquakes, big earth-moving displacement events. However, the dreams are mainly not bad or scary. I have hellacious nightmares sometimes, and these dreams are not of that ilk. In the dreams, it's like things have gone so far wrong that what's left isn't so bad, if that makes sense. In the one last night, my kiddo and I were driving in an old Thunderbird (one of the smaller ones) and turned it over on a dirt road after slamming on the brakes cause a friend was sitting by the side of the road. It was on its side, and I calmy told her to climb out, then I hauled out and and we tipped the car back on to its wheels. All this felt strangely serene and non threatening.
Thinking about it now, perhaps the dreams are about letting me know that I can tread through the chaos and deconstruction that is my work, and still be ok in my own self. In fact, that's a message I need to hear right now, so hey, good thing I'm noticing *laughs* I had a friend who was a therapist. I used to talk to him about dreams a lot, and one thing he taught me was that it's not so much what you see or do in a dream, but how you feel and react inside to what you see and do. He said the best way to talk about a dream and find its meaning is to recount it as if you are still in it... "i'm driving up the sandy road, the car is light blue and the hills are green, the road is open and the air is wonderful. I feel ok, purposeful, glad my kid is travelling with me. Even though the entire shape of the earth has changed, we're ok. We have things that must be done, and we know they'll be done."... this is how it felt. Not so bad.
Funny thing is, the other night I did have a nightmare, dreaming I was beating on this girl who would not let me sleep! I was furious becasue she kept finding things for me to do, and I was down to where I knew I'd get less than six hours, which ruins my days. So I was angry and hitting her and yelling, and I woke up furious. Then I saw it was about 1:30 AM and I was stil going to get four hours of sleep. Ha!