OK wow...I dont even know where to start...
Well I almost had to get an entire new account, but you know what I took Mocha's advice and took my privacy back.
See I was dating this guy for the last 4 yrs and I FINALLY got the balls to break up with him. Honestly no one ever knew everything he did but basicly he made me feel so bad about myself. I never really let myself believe it but this is probably the best thing for me.
He was abusive in the past, he was emotionally abusive, never told me i was beautiful.
He would steal my visa and use it, he NEVER had a job, I paid for everything. I worked all the time, and went to school, and he just sat on his ass, and played his video games. Never helped me. I used to be the happiest person and when I was with him I was just sad, and depressed. Its just hes all ive known for soo long it scared me to be away from him. Finally I went to his house on Saturday [with a friend for support] and broke up with him. It was hard, and Im trying not to give in, but Im crying and then Im happy, then crying again. I dont really what to do, but I paid for this site FOR HIM in the beginning, and Ive been scared to make a journal or talk because He would read it, So I changed my password and he can get over it.
Its weird cause I woke up Happy the day after, and every day since then. I feel good for the first time in a long time.
He isolated himself so badly and at the same time he isolated me too. I stopped talking to all my friends because he didnt like me to. He wouldnt let me go out usually, he took up all my time. I became his mother more than his girlfriend.
But now I am ok, I guess.
See happy, Kinda! Im working on it!!
I think Ill be alright
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EDIT: I dont think Im strong enough for this!
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OHH YOU GOTTA HEAR THIS HA! WHEN I CALM DOWN ILL UPDATE..I HATE MEN
Well I almost had to get an entire new account, but you know what I took Mocha's advice and took my privacy back.
See I was dating this guy for the last 4 yrs and I FINALLY got the balls to break up with him. Honestly no one ever knew everything he did but basicly he made me feel so bad about myself. I never really let myself believe it but this is probably the best thing for me.
He was abusive in the past, he was emotionally abusive, never told me i was beautiful.
He would steal my visa and use it, he NEVER had a job, I paid for everything. I worked all the time, and went to school, and he just sat on his ass, and played his video games. Never helped me. I used to be the happiest person and when I was with him I was just sad, and depressed. Its just hes all ive known for soo long it scared me to be away from him. Finally I went to his house on Saturday [with a friend for support] and broke up with him. It was hard, and Im trying not to give in, but Im crying and then Im happy, then crying again. I dont really what to do, but I paid for this site FOR HIM in the beginning, and Ive been scared to make a journal or talk because He would read it, So I changed my password and he can get over it.
Its weird cause I woke up Happy the day after, and every day since then. I feel good for the first time in a long time.
He isolated himself so badly and at the same time he isolated me too. I stopped talking to all my friends because he didnt like me to. He wouldnt let me go out usually, he took up all my time. I became his mother more than his girlfriend.
But now I am ok, I guess.
See happy, Kinda! Im working on it!!
I think Ill be alright
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EDIT: I dont think Im strong enough for this!
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OHH YOU GOTTA HEAR THIS HA! WHEN I CALM DOWN ILL UPDATE..I HATE MEN
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