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Monday May 05, 2003

May 5, 2003
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Just how long are these moments where you're searching for what the hell you're supposed to do with your life supposed to last? And how does one go about setting the gears in motion if they do decide?

It seems like it's been years since I started this pattern of "I wanna do something with my life" every two months or so. Lately I guess it's the same things. I wanna start writing more seriously. I want to really start working on my photography. But of course it's always just "I wanna" and I never have the motivation to stick with it. Other things just grab my attention and I'm constantly in a limbo, never excelling in anything and always just hanging in a state of nothing, my life going nowhere.

People can give me as many "go get 'em!" or "just do it!" or "when I actually went and ..." type speeches as they want, but it never helps me.

What the hell?

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soeffinhappy:
Why are you so worried about things like that man? Some people just don't stick with things for extended periods of time. There's nothing wrong with that, just know it about yourself. Life isn't a race or a contest, you've got plenty of time to do the things you want to do and plenty of time to find out how you want to live it. In the meantime just keep yourself happy.
May 10, 2003
demoniacsmile:
You seem not to understand that every day, I litterally sit at the computer all day long. I would like to keep myself productive but I cannot motivate myself to actually go and do these things. Thus is my problem. I cannot just be happy because I have nothing to be happy about, since I do nothing all day long.
May 13, 2003

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