It's probably long past time I posted a new blog. Unfortunately I am still struggling like hell to get out of this strange limbo I've gotten myself into. Basically my problem is even though I'm running up that hill, I need a demon on my heels to make some progress.
I still don't have a job, but at least I have an apprenticeship of sorts. I'm hoping my teacher hires me when she feels I've completed my training.
I'm actually a bit heavier now then when I posted that previous blog six months ago. I was 10 pounds lighter, about 163. I maxed out this time at 174. I began working out again, and have lost 3 to 4 pounds in about 10 days. This is a little faster than I'm supposed to, but otherwise I'm pretty close to being on track. I once read:
There is no failure, only results. And: If you do what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always had. I need to do something different. It's just that simple. I'm a Gemini. I get bored easily. Luckily, I'm starting to feel healthy enough to get back on my fixed gear and hit the Iron Horse Trails again. There are very few things I love more than flying down a bike trail. I miss Sacramento and it's network of miles and miles of bike trails that never cross a road. The last time I lost weight it was when I had the convenience of the Sacramento bike trails, and it's when I stopped having the ability to feel safe riding my fixed gear (Here in Oakland, not too much after my husband I moved here, I saw a cyclist get hit by a car) that I gained everything back. I can make myself run on a treadmill, walk around Lake Merritt, lift weights, use the stationary bike, even the elliptical; I can make myself do it, but I hate it and it's boring. Charging around on my bike on an empty bike trail on a beautiful mild spring day is nearly as good as MDMA. At my best, I was 132 pounds and a size 4, and my legs were solid muscle. I had nearly limitless energy. It's the vague memory of this time, even though that was less than 2 years ago now, that drives me now.
This time, I just know that something good is going to happen. Keep running up that hill, Nick.
I still don't have a job, but at least I have an apprenticeship of sorts. I'm hoping my teacher hires me when she feels I've completed my training.
I'm actually a bit heavier now then when I posted that previous blog six months ago. I was 10 pounds lighter, about 163. I maxed out this time at 174. I began working out again, and have lost 3 to 4 pounds in about 10 days. This is a little faster than I'm supposed to, but otherwise I'm pretty close to being on track. I once read:
There is no failure, only results. And: If you do what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always had. I need to do something different. It's just that simple. I'm a Gemini. I get bored easily. Luckily, I'm starting to feel healthy enough to get back on my fixed gear and hit the Iron Horse Trails again. There are very few things I love more than flying down a bike trail. I miss Sacramento and it's network of miles and miles of bike trails that never cross a road. The last time I lost weight it was when I had the convenience of the Sacramento bike trails, and it's when I stopped having the ability to feel safe riding my fixed gear (Here in Oakland, not too much after my husband I moved here, I saw a cyclist get hit by a car) that I gained everything back. I can make myself run on a treadmill, walk around Lake Merritt, lift weights, use the stationary bike, even the elliptical; I can make myself do it, but I hate it and it's boring. Charging around on my bike on an empty bike trail on a beautiful mild spring day is nearly as good as MDMA. At my best, I was 132 pounds and a size 4, and my legs were solid muscle. I had nearly limitless energy. It's the vague memory of this time, even though that was less than 2 years ago now, that drives me now.
This time, I just know that something good is going to happen. Keep running up that hill, Nick.
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but ima try for the next thing you posted! cos ide love to hang with you
xxx
I found a full time job at a restaurant.
What specific days this week do you have?
I'm excited to see the new place of employment!