Monday Jan 19, 2009

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Oh. My. God.

I rode over 25 miles today.

My legs hurt.
stiles:
Congratulations, 25 miles is no joke.
catagogo:
Congrats!! I bet it's the good kind of hurt.

Friday Jan 16, 2009

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Okay, what am I doing wrong right now?

I make myself go out and do stuff. I try to keep busy. I've been a lot better at holding myself to the promises I made to myself. But fuck all if it doesn't just feel like a colossal waste of time. When did my life become so empty?

No. I'm not going to blame that on...
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damionw:
You aren't having trouble meeting new people, just having trouble forcing yourself on people. You can't go out and force people to fill a void in your life and expect something good. You need to be ready too.

Give yourself sometime, Be a homebody for a bit more, organize everything else, read books you've been meaning to read, learn something new and when you are comfortable with yourself, then go out and say hi to new people.



tafkasp:
don't mistake what you think to be is your ineptness at meeting new people, for those people's inability to recognize a good thing when they see it.

you are a wonderful, beautiful, interesting woman.

and don't you ever fucking forget it.

Thursday Jan 08, 2009

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When Ryan and I broke up, I had some great insight into ways to change my life for the better. I was going to reconnect with all the friends that I've lost contact with over the years. I was going to eat healthier, get more exercise, keep my alcohol consumption to a minimum, and for gods sake FINALLY try to quit smoking. I would go...
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tafkasp:
that's okay, i won't judge you either way.
damionw:
it sounds like a good plan. Good Luck.

Thursday Dec 25, 2008

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I hate Christmas.

Let me rephrase. I hate being single and alone and hungover on Christmas. I wish I had somewhere to go. Anywhere.

edit:

Bugger this. I'm going for a bike ride. Maybe I'll see a movie. But I'm not staying home.
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rabidbuttons:
hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug


that's how I feel right about now.....only I am stuck here..... crud
damionw:
Thanks.

Hope you have a better new years.

Sunday Dec 07, 2008

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I'm sitting in the SouthWest terminal in the Sacramento airport. It occurs to me now that there is a reason I have not flown is so long.

I hate flying and I'm terrified right now.

Can't say I'm stoked on the 14 hour drive back from Arizona, either.
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omeganightmare:
hope yah had a good trip.

Maybe I'll get a chance to hang out with all of y'all up there soon.
subrosa:
You back mobile with wheels? Come to San Francisco.

Saturday Nov 29, 2008

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Maybe this was a weird request, I don't know, Ryan has been sleeping elsewhere for a week now. He's going to be moving all his stuff today. I asked him if he would sleep just one more night at the apartment with me. Never expected sex, and I didn't ask for it. It wasn't what I wanted. All I wanted was for him to sleep...
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dino:
I'm now going through the same thing. I am so sorry.
greggster:
i wish you the best sweets, i love you both

Sunday Nov 23, 2008

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Roommate situation may be figured out. That is aside from the fact that I am basically going to have to bike out to Howe and Hurley from midtown to sign paper work. Augh, it's gonna be a looooooong ride. I'm in good shape now, but that's still pretty far. And I have to bike to work Tuesday too.

I can't wait to get my car...
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munke:
Take the bike trail... it'll go by easily and you'll be there before you know it!

tafkasp:
i would that if i could, milady.

alas, we both have our friend requests turned off at the moment.

Saturday Nov 22, 2008

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I had a painful talk with Ryan this morning. Painful but necessary. I feel like some progress has been made. We had been living together for about a month after we had broken up before he told me he wanted to move out. He told me he felt that he was torturing me by staying here. Yesterday was the worst torture of my life. I...
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razziel:
Glad you are back, sorry for the hardships and hurts, but it's natural stresses of 'our times' could lead to breaking up.

Most arguments are based on money, sex, and kids.

The economic uncertainty of today is going to affect all three.
tafkasp:
hey, you're back!

(i used to be SuicidePuppies btw)

it was only a week ago or so i gave up hope that you'd ever return and removed you from my friends' list. and now, here you are, making me feel like a fool for doing such a thing. wink

glad to see you're back. sorry it couldn't have been under happier circumstances. i hope whatever happens, that you'll be happy again. and realize that whatever strength you did come to find through Ryan, that it was a strength that you probably had in you all along. so, no matter what happens, i think you'll find it again.

anyway, i hope you're otherwise well. i wish you all the best during this time. and welcome back. kiss

Friday Nov 21, 2008

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So, after a long hiatus, I have returned. I am single again, and not sure what to do with myself anymore, so it seemed time to rejoin and start over, and make friends again.

So many things have happened since I've been away. I fell more deeply in love then I ever though possible only to have it torn away from me. I've had two...
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joker_:
Hey do you want my Corporate Warlords group?

wink
a35mmlife:
i got my comp subscription yesterday too! its a reunion...

Thursday Apr 26, 2007

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Okay, so my account is apparently not going to expire. Theories as to why are many and varied. I guess I'll just have to see how long it lasts....
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joker_:
Your account is unexpired! Yay!
luciefurr:
OMFG Yay!!! Do you want Make-up & Beauty Back? How have you been?!?!
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