deminishlucidity

dwindling down to everythiing..
liar.
Im a liar.
your a fucking liar.
this is a lie.. isn't it...
said you'd love me forever.
because you knew it would come to this.
you knew.. and I did.
But we fucking lied to eachother.
Said I was beautiful with your head on my chest.
leopard pajamas on.. couch against the kitchen wall.

NOTHING MORE NEEDED.

Love me...
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this is for you
a new beginning
put you under
an open field
vast expanding
its expanding
the center of reason/the center of reason
you dont have to think
no worries
i'll do this for you
just tell me what its like
your're in between
see what i dont
tell me, tell me
can you hear the past?
you're on both sides
are you welcomed,...
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yeah im very trashed .. just got home 334 am .. Met some ppl and they really help me with my depression tonite..
Met a girl..

Im sure "she" met a guy.

becky z died at 7:30 this morning..

Im sad.

...im in this still meadow sleeping
dreaming
resounding footsteps of you leaving
are never ending.

the 6th my bday.. yaay .. or not..
my friend becky is on her death bed,
dying of cancer and code blue is imminent..

I went to this place called the "bld" on saturday.. It was like "what the hell" is going on type of place.. It was cool though.. different bands performing and really cool nice people.. I ran into one of my ex ex ex girlfriends and her new dood. Which was.. I dont know. Im wondering why I ever cared about her anyway.. And this other...
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once i get my ps working again

When I go out I dont bother anyone Im mellow may if your lucky try to start a polite conversation. Those of you who know me say, "sonet is a cool dude, he'll give you the shirt off of his back then buy you a new one". Well well.. so i went out last saturday which is very rare, to the illogic show which I...
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The new MydyingBride is in my possesion and its really fucking miserable which is ..Good..
How many albums can someone release and it be more miserable than the previous.

I cant wait to go to montreal in june to see my favorite band, Katatonia , and I might hitch a ride with my friends from my other fav band Daylight Dies
It will rawk.
Anyhow,...
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"...it is a way to forget all of last years failures..."

For everyone who wants to see my friends "prozac angels" .. Im working on getting pics.. plus she owes me one.. so If i get that i'll post it..

I may put up a website for her and anyone who is interested in purchasing some of her artwork may do so there.. or through me..

At home on a lonely st. patricks nite... listening to sarah mclachlan..
What the fuck?