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All of my hopefuls pics are deleted, as well as my old photos and most of my groups, though somewhere SG keeps them all Ive been told.
Soon I will clean out other things.
I kind of dont want to, but I think it is necessary completely.
Avoiding schoolwork, despite me NEEDING to get thigns done.
Put on some new stupid diet to stabilize my bloodsugar, for 10-20 days.
Sucks, aall Iw ant is cotton candy and pizza......but I cant.
And my precious bubble tea....grrrrrrrrrrrr.
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Mar 02/2004 Journal.
This past week I learned to expect the very most unexpected.
Also, that I do have morals and ethics and they lead me to override physical/petty wishes.
This also makes me exremely happy.
I dont want to turn a blind eye.
I want to believe in an alternative, where the politics arent corrupt and evel.
Where the people in charge actually value and believe in the little people keeping them going.
That we arent pawns, that we can and do make or break them.
Also, that this fad will fade into obvlivion and mainstream society within the next few years. And to survive they will surely need to adjust themselves accordingly, or, continue keeping the little people in the dark. Placated so they wont do anything about it.
As I have said before, feel free to msg me with your personal Im's etc to keep in touch.
May 02 is the very last day.
However, because I see no need to stick around, this probably is my last journal entry. probably.
To all of you who went out of your way to confort my neurotic ways, thank you. It is much appreciated.
To those of you, i didnt get to know, contact me, and parhaps we still can.
Thank you Aanya for agreeing to dissagree and for our long talks. Through d20 we met and it has grown to a valued friendship...and you obviously know that I dont consider people good friends easily.
Akuma:For putting up with me for 7 years, giving me the best nephew ever.
For being the only person in the entire world I love as much as myself and your son. W had some bad things this year...I know you'll probably scoff at me for being so "irrational" and "demented" and silly..but I always liked that from you.
I feel like you complete me on some level.
You are such a wonderful, beautiful creature.
To Dani, thanks for that camera and having the best journals ever. Maybe we can go for slushies some time? Start an Aim account, as my msgr isnt working. And most likely wont for a long time.
NNY: Thank you for giving me misanthropic pleasure. You are reason enough to relish in disdain. But also, in the wonder that is our world.
Pyroerotica: For making me your crush and keeping me as such for a long time, until a better one, won out.
KyleFace: for never having a journal entry but not seeming like a lurker.
Zerosome: For renting that movie and making me want to do drugs again ,even though I dont. Also, for having a radical profile, that isnt visited nearly as much as it should be. Nor nearly as appreciated as it should be.
Tiamat: Even though I havent seen you in over 5 years, except darting around town here and there, I think youd show me up on the sushi consumption. For sure.
I know my leaving isnt making any tiny bit of a ripple, but parhaps it will at least make people think and question the utopia.
Thank you all. May you have many a merry winters, springs, falls, and summers.
Contact info:
Aim: DementiaAlone.
All of my hopefuls pics are deleted, as well as my old photos and most of my groups, though somewhere SG keeps them all Ive been told.
Soon I will clean out other things.
I kind of dont want to, but I think it is necessary completely.
Avoiding schoolwork, despite me NEEDING to get thigns done.
Put on some new stupid diet to stabilize my bloodsugar, for 10-20 days.
Sucks, aall Iw ant is cotton candy and pizza......but I cant.
And my precious bubble tea....grrrrrrrrrrrr.
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Mar 02/2004 Journal.
This past week I learned to expect the very most unexpected.
Also, that I do have morals and ethics and they lead me to override physical/petty wishes.
This also makes me exremely happy.
I dont want to turn a blind eye.
I want to believe in an alternative, where the politics arent corrupt and evel.
Where the people in charge actually value and believe in the little people keeping them going.
That we arent pawns, that we can and do make or break them.
Also, that this fad will fade into obvlivion and mainstream society within the next few years. And to survive they will surely need to adjust themselves accordingly, or, continue keeping the little people in the dark. Placated so they wont do anything about it.
As I have said before, feel free to msg me with your personal Im's etc to keep in touch.
May 02 is the very last day.
However, because I see no need to stick around, this probably is my last journal entry. probably.
To all of you who went out of your way to confort my neurotic ways, thank you. It is much appreciated.
To those of you, i didnt get to know, contact me, and parhaps we still can.
Thank you Aanya for agreeing to dissagree and for our long talks. Through d20 we met and it has grown to a valued friendship...and you obviously know that I dont consider people good friends easily.
Akuma:For putting up with me for 7 years, giving me the best nephew ever.
For being the only person in the entire world I love as much as myself and your son. W had some bad things this year...I know you'll probably scoff at me for being so "irrational" and "demented" and silly..but I always liked that from you.
I feel like you complete me on some level.
You are such a wonderful, beautiful creature.
To Dani, thanks for that camera and having the best journals ever. Maybe we can go for slushies some time? Start an Aim account, as my msgr isnt working. And most likely wont for a long time.
NNY: Thank you for giving me misanthropic pleasure. You are reason enough to relish in disdain. But also, in the wonder that is our world.
Pyroerotica: For making me your crush and keeping me as such for a long time, until a better one, won out.
KyleFace: for never having a journal entry but not seeming like a lurker.
Zerosome: For renting that movie and making me want to do drugs again ,even though I dont. Also, for having a radical profile, that isnt visited nearly as much as it should be. Nor nearly as appreciated as it should be.
Tiamat: Even though I havent seen you in over 5 years, except darting around town here and there, I think youd show me up on the sushi consumption. For sure.
I know my leaving isnt making any tiny bit of a ripple, but parhaps it will at least make people think and question the utopia.
Thank you all. May you have many a merry winters, springs, falls, and summers.
Contact info:
Aim: DementiaAlone.
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su:
I changed my name b/c I felt more comfortable being Su, than being Zi.
meemee:
