delusion

i clutch shards of shattered promises,
your shameless prose,
you used to slice pale skin from unsuspecting bones.
(voyueristic) prying into my veins,
red blood (your hands),
color your shame.
embers glow on a bed of ashes,
bridges burned by careless matches,
tossed over upheld shoulders.
you never turned around to watch while you destroyed.
everything that we created,
all desires gone unsatiated,
you tortured with anticipation
of pictures eager limbs had painted.
( those golden days when bodies intertwined)
undiscovered as you violated chambers of my mind.
then layer stripped from layer, love
you held me as close as i hold this grudge