I've come to the conclusion that i'm just not happy with my status in life right now. I'm working the job i have simply because i have bills to pay and i have insurance through there, which i know i'm really lucky to have both so i shouldn't bitch. I feel like i have a million ideas and no true direction to chase them in. I need to get bills paid, my car fixed, i need to get to columbus to check out the culinary school, i need a plan and every plan i make just feels like it's going to fall flat on its face and it really sucks. If things were "ideal" i'd have a car that was dependable, i'd be living in columbus bartending and going to school. Things aren't always what we want them to be so we deal with the situations we're put in and that is life. well i say fuck that. don't settle. make mistakes, screw everything all up but don't fucking settle. pursue that shit until you got your dreams by the balls then yell at it "YOU'RE MINE FUCKER!"
ok...i feel a bit better.
ok...i feel a bit better.