delores

yeah, haven't been around in a while. lots of shit going on right now. *sigh*

my mom nearly lost the house, again. but we're in the clear now. and within two days we got the water and the power shut off at the house. their both back on now, but i had to pay for the water which was $204.44, leaving me with only $105 in my account. my mom says she'll pay me back on thursday, but who knows. she still hasn't paid me back for the $236 i gave her to save the house the last time. it just seems that everytime i get a little bit ahead, a little closer to being able to get the fuck out of this house, something has to happen to keep me trapped here.

but on a lighter note, i did have the most awesome sex dream this morning. it was fucking hot, and i dont even know where it came from either... the guy in it was someone i've been attracted to for a long time, but i haven't seen him in a long long time. i used to work with him, but he left last spring i think. maybe he was in it cause i'd mentioned him last night while having drinking and eating at applebee's with Kristin. but i only mentioned him to try and describe what my bartending teacher had looked like. hmm... i'm not complaining though, cause it was one fucking hot dream!
i haven't been horny in a long long time, totally not interested in sex in the slightest, but when i woke up from that dream, i was so turned on it was scary!

i need hours at work! they've been squeezing me lately. and i'm sure they want to fire me cause i've been really late or totally absent lately. thanks mom! yeah, she's made me crazy late the past few weekends.