delores

well, my new year has started off pretty fucking shitty, but i really dont feel like getting into that right now.

i loafed around the house all damn day, and i'm going nuts.

i really think i might be clinically depressed. i do have lot of the symptoms: mood swings, sudden crying jags, feelings of worthlessness,lack of energy, losing interest in sex (or just masturbation in my case). i'm not trying to alarm anyone, but it's been bothering me for a while now. i thought it was nothing until i mentioned my lack of sexual interest to my friend and she said "you know, that is a symptom of depression"
everything just seems to be wrong.

oh yeah, and i've been eating an awful lot lately too. but the thing is i eat until i feel sick. what the fuck is that? and this has only started happening in the past week, it's not something i normally do. i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
and all i want to do most of the time is sleep. i like to sleep the entire day away. that's why i haven't been around very much lately.
today was the first time i showered in like 5 or 6 days. i just haven't had the energy.
and problems in my home and personal life aren't helping my mental state (whatever they might be) whatsoever.

i was told that i'm just going though a funk, and that everyone gets out of it and so will i. *shrug*
it doesn't feel like just a funk. i dont fucking know.