It is possible that I will come across a person that I haven't seen in four years this weekend. A person that wouldn't let me live until I was with them completely. A person that hurt me in every way imaginable without doing anything.
It is certain that I will see the "love of my life from last year" this weekend too. They are different; they know how I am, how I tick. They know what to do to make me happy.
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I've thought about Josh for years now. He seems to creep into my dreams on a regular basis, forcing me to remember his presence. Even though it's been four years, I still cannot get over him. I still freak out if I see someone who looks like him walking down the street. Although I'm positive it's not him (what would he be doing in Montana?), there is a remote possibility. This weekend could possibly be the end of my torture; I could end it all. (Or, start it all over again)
Then there's Joel. I won't go into Joel. Joel is me; I am Joel.
It is certain that I will see the "love of my life from last year" this weekend too. They are different; they know how I am, how I tick. They know what to do to make me happy.
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I've thought about Josh for years now. He seems to creep into my dreams on a regular basis, forcing me to remember his presence. Even though it's been four years, I still cannot get over him. I still freak out if I see someone who looks like him walking down the street. Although I'm positive it's not him (what would he be doing in Montana?), there is a remote possibility. This weekend could possibly be the end of my torture; I could end it all. (Or, start it all over again)
Then there's Joel. I won't go into Joel. Joel is me; I am Joel.
I've been in a foul mood ever since then.