I am rather apt to become more vapid than usual as the days begin to shorten.
I really need to read more... I can't remember the last time I actually finished a book... I can't recall a time in the last 6 months that I have even sat down WITH a book that wasn't work related. Its tragic... sad... mind-narrowing, EMBARASSING.
But hopefully, HOPEFULLY the interview goes well tommorow, and then everything will change. HA! I sound like my mother, with her tired little mantra the whole time we were growing up: "As soon as we get through this difficult time...." Well, this ISN'T a difficult time, this is life. Daily life. Not terrible daily life, either. I love my little house. I love the dynamics that have finally been allowed to grow between my little Koka and I... I love that when the winter travel plans come to the table, its a natural progression that I have actually become a PART of the scheme this time. Bizarre.
Still, the domesticity and the unyielding march towards maturity is a trifle daunting.... it feels like more and more of my brain matter is dying or becoming dormant. What IS the answer? What a stupid question.
At least if I get this new job, its a new beginning.... and it means I don't have to be as angry with myself as I inevitably will be when I don't have any time for winter production, because training comes first.
It seems like fate is kind that way too; 3 of our usual craft shows have cancelled this year, so the crochet load is going to be perhaps slightly more manageable (as opposed to last year, when I was working so much and making so much that 3 of my fingers went numb for a month).
Ohhh... I need to go outside, sit under my apple tree, and remember what fresh air smells like. Adieu.
I really need to read more... I can't remember the last time I actually finished a book... I can't recall a time in the last 6 months that I have even sat down WITH a book that wasn't work related. Its tragic... sad... mind-narrowing, EMBARASSING.
But hopefully, HOPEFULLY the interview goes well tommorow, and then everything will change. HA! I sound like my mother, with her tired little mantra the whole time we were growing up: "As soon as we get through this difficult time...." Well, this ISN'T a difficult time, this is life. Daily life. Not terrible daily life, either. I love my little house. I love the dynamics that have finally been allowed to grow between my little Koka and I... I love that when the winter travel plans come to the table, its a natural progression that I have actually become a PART of the scheme this time. Bizarre.
Still, the domesticity and the unyielding march towards maturity is a trifle daunting.... it feels like more and more of my brain matter is dying or becoming dormant. What IS the answer? What a stupid question.
At least if I get this new job, its a new beginning.... and it means I don't have to be as angry with myself as I inevitably will be when I don't have any time for winter production, because training comes first.
It seems like fate is kind that way too; 3 of our usual craft shows have cancelled this year, so the crochet load is going to be perhaps slightly more manageable (as opposed to last year, when I was working so much and making so much that 3 of my fingers went numb for a month).
Ohhh... I need to go outside, sit under my apple tree, and remember what fresh air smells like. Adieu.
YAY! Apple trees!
Yeah, that is life. It has road blocks in your way that you must overcome. There is no stop to the limit, they just keep coming. The best thing to do is to just keep breaking through them and don't give up.
Have a great day!