del_2_12

school is making me a fucking basketcase. i have never worried so much in my life. i need to get out of my house more but everytime i do i feel like i should be doing paperwork, or reading about 200 pages. the past 2 days have been a little better than most of january. i'll probably start to feel crappy as soon as i start my reading for this next test.

i gave a lady a shot in the leg today at the hospital, it was wierd. i didn't do it fast enough and i know i hurt her. the needle was bigger than the one i wanted to use but i couldn't find a smaller one. i need more pratice. i'm supposed to give a newborn a shot next week. sometimes i feel really inadaquate when i get home from school/hospital. like i could have done things so much better. i feel like such a fucking failure.

its cold out side, i'm in actual physical pain from the cold. i get really tense and it feels like my body is telling me to get in the fetal position so less of me is exposed.

i wish i would have stopped at taco bell on the way home, although i cannot tell if i have heartburn or i'm hungry. 2am is a terrible time to eat, white castle sounds amazing right now.

i'm gonna watch some bullshit on tv, chew a pepsid and try to stop thinking about things long enough to go to sleep.