Don't you think its interesting how people can see the exact same thing but come out with an entirely different feeling, perception, or idea about it. I mean its totally and completely just life but when you stop to think about it, its interesting.
After my friend Jonathan's bday party this weekend which was so fun....came the photos and i realize i hate the way i looked. Ive never been happy about it but for the first time i really feel like doing something about it (i was feeling this before the photos). Its just i don't think i look on the outside like the person i am on inside if that makes any sense.
I feel as though i am at a major transition point in my life, it may be an extended one but transition none the less. Mental and physical.
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Headed up to NYC again, was just there 2 weeks ago for a few days, but im headed back again to get off the rock.
I feel so much more at home there then here. I actually realized something when i was there last...i feel as though i just blend in there and even if i were to be more like me on the outside there i still wouldnt really stand out unlike here i would, i do...i dont like standing out. Maybe i should get over that. My friend Sarah thinks i should as she seems to think that the energy i exude makes me stand out already and thats why she gravitated towards me the night we met. I dunno...maybe its just all a confidence thing.
OKay thats enough blabbering.
After my friend Jonathan's bday party this weekend which was so fun....came the photos and i realize i hate the way i looked. Ive never been happy about it but for the first time i really feel like doing something about it (i was feeling this before the photos). Its just i don't think i look on the outside like the person i am on inside if that makes any sense.
I feel as though i am at a major transition point in my life, it may be an extended one but transition none the less. Mental and physical.
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Headed up to NYC again, was just there 2 weeks ago for a few days, but im headed back again to get off the rock.
I feel so much more at home there then here. I actually realized something when i was there last...i feel as though i just blend in there and even if i were to be more like me on the outside there i still wouldnt really stand out unlike here i would, i do...i dont like standing out. Maybe i should get over that. My friend Sarah thinks i should as she seems to think that the energy i exude makes me stand out already and thats why she gravitated towards me the night we met. I dunno...maybe its just all a confidence thing.
OKay thats enough blabbering.
youroldlady:
That is awesome. I know exactly what you mean. For what it is worth, I think you are very beautiful on the outside also 