deflicted

so im depressed and need change and want to move to dfw or canada i really think canada has more for me i am just sick and tired of this hum drum bullshit i hate my life i hate where i live and i need dramatic change and dont want to be alone anyone but dont know how to fix that i feel like i need to be needed but no one needs me (bleh) which is whatever and if they dont need me then whatever it is there loss i just want to be somewhat normal and have a relationship with some one who loves me for me and wants to take care of me and i can take care of them and love me and i dont think thts asking a lot