Well here we go again.
No!
NOT the tired ranting of a heartbroken girl, no bitter words put into poetry, nor stupid personality profiles. Just simply me.as honest as I've been lately. Well not really as honest, just as straight forward. If you cannot deal with that.stop reading.
There are things about me that are good and bad. As surely as it is for anyone in this world. Any of those things that make me who I am, my friends and my foe's, you and yours, should feel for me because of both. I am blunt, mostly honest (
), outgoing, loud, hard working, hyper, and crabby around this time of the month!~ There are a lot of things that are signature Laura. I'm tired of locking me in a closet for other people. If you don't like it, there is the door. SIMPLY.walk out! My life would be better without people who pretend to appreciate WHO I am.because I am at the point where I am grateful to be Laura . (Here is your second warning)this isn't a blog or a thought for the sensitive or guilty hearted.
I am tired, VERY TIRED, of living for others and trying to make them happy. I worry about my friends.and want only what is best, maybe not for right now, but for the future. I'm a what if girl, a stratagist of some sort, and if preparing for the worst is what saves me.let me question every detail. It might have, or might one day still, be what saves you.I've sewn my lips shut long enough, and I simply refuse any longer.
LAURA'S LESSONS TO LEARN/LEARNED WITH RE-EVALUATION:
1. I hate liars and hypocrites.just something else to the list of lessons and self knowledge I've regained in the last 24 hours. Know what I hate worse than that????? People whom are both..
In all honesty, I just want the best for everyone. When I say everyone, I've been meaning everyone but me. I'm tired of having fingers constantly pointed in my face, either towards me or at others. TAKE responsibility. It is a very important part of being an adult, being able to admit when you are at fault, when you are just wrong, or when things could have been different. I can do that, I learned to do that in spite of my stubborn pride. I also know when there is no way that I could be wrong.and though it doesn't happen often, it is much more luminous and brilliant when it does occur.I need to trust in me.and those who cannot trust themselves and trust me.SHOULD LISTEN TOO~
I will not be asked a question, and lie. I cannot care about people, and hold my tongue while they slowly die, I cannot NOT be me, because you'd rather live in denial. I've done it for one person, and I will not do it for anyone ever again.
I know I cannot chose who I love anymore than I can keep myself contained to the boxes and packages everyone else would like to unwrap. I can also not stop my feelings, they are as they are, and it takes A LOT of evidence to change what it is that I feel, especially when I'm passionate.
To know what is going to happen in the future, I learn to look to the past. I learn to talk to those who care about me, and are level headed about what makes me happy. I learn from most of my mistakes, as I find it better than to have to go through the pain of repeated. Best of all, I can forgive.and move on.even if it takes time.
Final verdict, I'm back, I'm not going anywhere.well at least until July. What I am going to do is take sometime alone, to think, to ponder, and to love the one person that loves me regardless..and that is me! I know I'm a good person, that is one thing I'll never deny myself again.nor allow someone else to convince me of otherwise. I am going to spend the time I have with people who are an asset to my life, and not a deterrent or "speed bump" to the person I so desperately know WHO IS MElife is too short.and I'm doing this for myself.
If you never learn anything else from me.learn this at this secondalways be careful what you wish for..because it might ACTUALLY come true, and not be what you have expected..
I thank whomever it is above, in letting me know, and letting the others know who love everything there is to love about me.that the grass isn't greener, no matter what side you wish to walk to.I am content to just live on my grassy little knoll in truth within the stark, honest, moderately stubborn, passionate person I am.I am happy in knowing that.
Thanks to those who love me, and who love me for my values, morals, faults, and strengths. You bet your sweet bippy that I love you too~
Goodbye for now if you are a conditional lover, friend, or foe..I have no time for you.and you don't deserve any of mine.
No!
NOT the tired ranting of a heartbroken girl, no bitter words put into poetry, nor stupid personality profiles. Just simply me.as honest as I've been lately. Well not really as honest, just as straight forward. If you cannot deal with that.stop reading.
There are things about me that are good and bad. As surely as it is for anyone in this world. Any of those things that make me who I am, my friends and my foe's, you and yours, should feel for me because of both. I am blunt, mostly honest (
), outgoing, loud, hard working, hyper, and crabby around this time of the month!~ There are a lot of things that are signature Laura. I'm tired of locking me in a closet for other people. If you don't like it, there is the door. SIMPLY.walk out! My life would be better without people who pretend to appreciate WHO I am.because I am at the point where I am grateful to be Laura . (Here is your second warning)this isn't a blog or a thought for the sensitive or guilty hearted.
I am tired, VERY TIRED, of living for others and trying to make them happy. I worry about my friends.and want only what is best, maybe not for right now, but for the future. I'm a what if girl, a stratagist of some sort, and if preparing for the worst is what saves me.let me question every detail. It might have, or might one day still, be what saves you.I've sewn my lips shut long enough, and I simply refuse any longer.
LAURA'S LESSONS TO LEARN/LEARNED WITH RE-EVALUATION:
1. I hate liars and hypocrites.just something else to the list of lessons and self knowledge I've regained in the last 24 hours. Know what I hate worse than that????? People whom are both..
In all honesty, I just want the best for everyone. When I say everyone, I've been meaning everyone but me. I'm tired of having fingers constantly pointed in my face, either towards me or at others. TAKE responsibility. It is a very important part of being an adult, being able to admit when you are at fault, when you are just wrong, or when things could have been different. I can do that, I learned to do that in spite of my stubborn pride. I also know when there is no way that I could be wrong.and though it doesn't happen often, it is much more luminous and brilliant when it does occur.I need to trust in me.and those who cannot trust themselves and trust me.SHOULD LISTEN TOO~
I will not be asked a question, and lie. I cannot care about people, and hold my tongue while they slowly die, I cannot NOT be me, because you'd rather live in denial. I've done it for one person, and I will not do it for anyone ever again.
I know I cannot chose who I love anymore than I can keep myself contained to the boxes and packages everyone else would like to unwrap. I can also not stop my feelings, they are as they are, and it takes A LOT of evidence to change what it is that I feel, especially when I'm passionate.
To know what is going to happen in the future, I learn to look to the past. I learn to talk to those who care about me, and are level headed about what makes me happy. I learn from most of my mistakes, as I find it better than to have to go through the pain of repeated. Best of all, I can forgive.and move on.even if it takes time.
Final verdict, I'm back, I'm not going anywhere.well at least until July. What I am going to do is take sometime alone, to think, to ponder, and to love the one person that loves me regardless..and that is me! I know I'm a good person, that is one thing I'll never deny myself again.nor allow someone else to convince me of otherwise. I am going to spend the time I have with people who are an asset to my life, and not a deterrent or "speed bump" to the person I so desperately know WHO IS MElife is too short.and I'm doing this for myself.
If you never learn anything else from me.learn this at this secondalways be careful what you wish for..because it might ACTUALLY come true, and not be what you have expected..
I thank whomever it is above, in letting me know, and letting the others know who love everything there is to love about me.that the grass isn't greener, no matter what side you wish to walk to.I am content to just live on my grassy little knoll in truth within the stark, honest, moderately stubborn, passionate person I am.I am happy in knowing that.
Thanks to those who love me, and who love me for my values, morals, faults, and strengths. You bet your sweet bippy that I love you too~
Goodbye for now if you are a conditional lover, friend, or foe..I have no time for you.and you don't deserve any of mine.