Well, my first entry here. Sorry its not a good one.
A little backround for anyone reading even though I sure as fuck know all this.
I'm a sailor. I have been for five years now, ever since I enlisted after I dropped out of college in Louisiana. Not like I had much of a choice, you try missing a few midterms in your first semester because you were too drunk to wake up and take them. See how it goes for you. Its all good though because at the time I didn't want to be there in the first place and the parents made me go anyway. Boy oh boy, Dad sure paid for that lapse of judgement. I may be wiser now, but what do you expect for back then? I was 18, unmotivated, and working in a bar that gave unlimited free liquor to all employees (god I miss that boss)
Well, I enlisted because I was tired of the way I was living. I was the quissessential parent leech and I knew it... and somehow I had enough of a concious for it to bother me enough to get out on my own.
At this point in my life I have been in the Navy for five years. I've spent a year in school and the last 4 years in the fleet. I've advanced in rank faster then 90% of the people I know and ended up the boss of (some of)my old bosses... and boy did I get even for their dumb shit
I was recently tranferred off of my ship and I am currently in a school that's teaching me how to teach school.... my next job is to teach my job to the kids fresh from bootcamp that are going to be sonar techs when I'm done with them. And off of that intro here's my actual enry for today
FUCK THIS! I'm drunk after 1/2 a 5th of Crown. I'm tired of concentrating on typing right and I'm pissed that my presentation today was SOOOOOO far below what I'm capable of. The damn instructor of my course called me out 40 minutes before I expected to perform and I was still in my resting state of mind. I hadn't gotten ready to teach and with a whole 6 minutes of floor time under my belt so far I sure as fuck wasn't ready to step up and do a 20 min presentation cold... 30 minutes before I started gearing up for it. I bombed it. I started out on the wrong foot, sluggish from a big lunch, half asleep, and not in the right state of mind to jump in and begin. So what happened? Well I fucked it up royally. I was one of 3 idiots out of 23 that just couldn't do the shit right. Now if I was wrong, it wouldn't be an issue. I would learn it on my own and nail it the second time, but I'm pisssed because I KNEW how to do this right. My practice present yesterday was 100% on the money, fucking perfect. Today just hit me when I wasn't entirely sure my name was David, much less what the fucking parts of a goddamned fathometer were (it measures water depth btw) So I was half asleep and not ready at all when I was called out, out of the assigned order and I screwed it. Now on monday I have to come in 45 minutes earlier than usual and prove to these pricks that I know how to teach a lesson on something I have torn down to pieces and rebuilt twice already. Fuck me its time to finish off that 5th....
A little backround for anyone reading even though I sure as fuck know all this.
I'm a sailor. I have been for five years now, ever since I enlisted after I dropped out of college in Louisiana. Not like I had much of a choice, you try missing a few midterms in your first semester because you were too drunk to wake up and take them. See how it goes for you. Its all good though because at the time I didn't want to be there in the first place and the parents made me go anyway. Boy oh boy, Dad sure paid for that lapse of judgement. I may be wiser now, but what do you expect for back then? I was 18, unmotivated, and working in a bar that gave unlimited free liquor to all employees (god I miss that boss)
Well, I enlisted because I was tired of the way I was living. I was the quissessential parent leech and I knew it... and somehow I had enough of a concious for it to bother me enough to get out on my own.
At this point in my life I have been in the Navy for five years. I've spent a year in school and the last 4 years in the fleet. I've advanced in rank faster then 90% of the people I know and ended up the boss of (some of)my old bosses... and boy did I get even for their dumb shit
I was recently tranferred off of my ship and I am currently in a school that's teaching me how to teach school.... my next job is to teach my job to the kids fresh from bootcamp that are going to be sonar techs when I'm done with them. And off of that intro here's my actual enry for today
FUCK THIS! I'm drunk after 1/2 a 5th of Crown. I'm tired of concentrating on typing right and I'm pissed that my presentation today was SOOOOOO far below what I'm capable of. The damn instructor of my course called me out 40 minutes before I expected to perform and I was still in my resting state of mind. I hadn't gotten ready to teach and with a whole 6 minutes of floor time under my belt so far I sure as fuck wasn't ready to step up and do a 20 min presentation cold... 30 minutes before I started gearing up for it. I bombed it. I started out on the wrong foot, sluggish from a big lunch, half asleep, and not in the right state of mind to jump in and begin. So what happened? Well I fucked it up royally. I was one of 3 idiots out of 23 that just couldn't do the shit right. Now if I was wrong, it wouldn't be an issue. I would learn it on my own and nail it the second time, but I'm pisssed because I KNEW how to do this right. My practice present yesterday was 100% on the money, fucking perfect. Today just hit me when I wasn't entirely sure my name was David, much less what the fucking parts of a goddamned fathometer were (it measures water depth btw) So I was half asleep and not ready at all when I was called out, out of the assigned order and I screwed it. Now on monday I have to come in 45 minutes earlier than usual and prove to these pricks that I know how to teach a lesson on something I have torn down to pieces and rebuilt twice already. Fuck me its time to finish off that 5th....