decomp

hello, how is everyone? Work is tolerable yet still hypocritical. I have been drinking less and it has been extremely depressing but I want to cut down in order to save money, be healthier, and....be less depressed. Hence I have spent the week crawling into bed when I get home with sweatpants and sweatshirt, and heavy blankets over me with a book feeling very.....depressed. I have gone four days this week without drinking. Drank Wed and tonight and will drink tomorrow otherwise am reading books and trying for diversions. IT IS HARD!!~!!
I want to just crawl up and die, I hate the hours between 5 and 7 pm when I'm used to drinking, I can barely stand it. There is a song on a Lucinda Williams CD called "Lonely Girls" and it's about "heavy blankets" cover "lonely girls". I can relate.