decayingyouth

Today was really bad. It started out poorly and only got progressively worse through out the day. I woke up late, so I had to rush to get my sister ready for school (Long term baby-sitter is truly the best form of birth control). So I didnt get everything done this morning that I need to. Massive issues at school, which I wont even get into. Then I want to visit my mother at the hospital. Im seriously thinking of being explosives with me nest time. The parking is crazy at mercy hospital. There was bastard that was seriously taking up 3 spaces and with explosives I can solve that problem my self. Any who, I should get back on track... I get into my mothers room to find out that shes have an emergency surgery. There appears to be something really jacked up inside her.

So theres a best case and worse case scenario for this surgery. Best case scenario. They make an incision; they move the intestine back in place then insert more mesh to prevent if from happening again. The worst case scenario is pretty back. They make incision, remove the mesh that was inserted from the last surgery and remove a small part of the intestines and give her a colostomy. Then in a few months she goes into surgery again. The intestines are reattached and the mesh is re-inserted. Its been a bad week.

Im in dire need of a good hug and a quiet moment. Life is massively overwhelming currently. I havent really been sleeping much or well lately. Ive been sleeping about 4-6 hours a night. Its been close to the 5 hour mark, thats probably why I slept through 2 alarms this morning. I have so much on my much to do, its not funny. It seems like every day I have a new responsibility.

Hugs and kisses for everyone.