deathofadream

A lil recap of the weekend. As some of you know, i posted about my grandmother bein in the hospital. Since that day i have been self medicated pretty much for 4 days now. Friday i chilled with my cuz, i cant exactly remember if we did anything friday. I believe we just watched a movie and that was it. Then i got the news saturday and get hella fucked up. Took a perk a vike, smoked a lil weed and i think that was it. I was feelin pretty damn good. We ended up watchin american haunting that day and the break up. Then sunday i went xmas shoppin with them but didnt buy shit cuz i didnt have money cuz my stupid uncle didnt pay me. Then i went to go see my grandmother in the hospital which i dreaded. I ended up sittin on the floor with my head down the whole time i was there cuz i couldnt bare to look at her layin in the hospital bed.

Monday i worked and it was my last day thank god. Then i ended up gettin some valiums and taken like 3 of em or somethin and passed out. I woke up today not remember shit from last night. I know i woke up late this morning rushed to get ready to put stabilizer in all the lawnmowers and crap and i think we went for breakfast. But i certainly dont remember my uncle givin me a couple shirts that didnt fit him and me bringin them up to my room. And right now i just took another valium. Ahh whut would i do without my pills? I know be fuckin sober and bored as hell. Got to love bein self medicated.

I miss my cuz Sucks that she had to go back to new hampshire. Next time i see her is the day after xmas. Thats too long. Shes the only one i can really open up to . I was looking at a couple local tattoo parlor website and shit. And its pretty much a garantee that i will definately be gettin a new tattoo after xmas im hoping. If i get enough money. Of what though, i have no idea. I might get the cross on the back of my neck. Thats all your gettin as of that cuz i dont want no one stealing any ideas If not that then i might just something small or a new piercing. Whut piercing who knows. could be my lip, a vertical libret, my other nipple, or maybe even my dick. But everytime i think about gettin my dick pierced i cringe lol. And i dont know tell me whut yous think. This valium is hittin my pretty hard so imma go to sleep b4 it wears off so Good night and i leave yous with lyrics from a song by the band cold.

"Another Pill"

You're all the same, you lose, you win
Your mystery hides all your feelings
You're on your way to medicate
No one to hold, no one to sing

Take another pill for love, let it open
Up your mind to
Be free again
Think of everyone you've lost, let them
Open up your heart to
Complete yourself

You're all alone with broken wings
Your life hinges on your direction
Look to the stars to medicate
Listen to hear the whole world sing

The world to hold, the world to sing live again