Wow.
Okay.
So; I know I haven't been around much.
I've been both slightly busy and rather depressed.
I feel like I'm going around in circles.
I'll be down for a while, things will kind of plateau, things will get a little better, I'll have a good morning one day and then that same day some shit will be laid down that will cause a crash.
It's incredibly frustrating.
I try really hard to be optimistic and not put my burdens on other people.
Of course, this usually means I keep it all bottled up.
I avoid writing rants because I don't feel that anyone cares to read them; I have few friends and even fewer close ones that I think would even care about the way I'm feeling.
But this isn't supposed to be about that; more or less, I just feel stuck.
I hate my job. It makes me depressed and it feels pointless. I want to make something. I want to be productive. I really want to go back to school.
For those of you who don't know, I went to an art college after high school, though I dropped out after a semester. Most of it was paid for, but I did have to take out a few thousand in loans and I still owe the school about $1,000 out of pocket (a few thousand may seem like a lot, but considering tuition was about $40,000 a year it's nothing). Unfortunately, the company that I took my student loan from failed to inform me properly that I've owed them payments for the last 6 months. If I had known, I could've payed them, but now I owe them about $500. Ugh.
I'm not sure how it's going to affect me trying to go to school again. I'm worried and frustrated and I feel like I'm stuck in a hole.
I'm just a bit sick of running in circles.
On another note, a lighter note, I did dye my hair again. I seem to have an addiction... hm.
It was supposed to be purple, but it's really more of a fuchsia colour.
I think it's kind of pretty anyways, though.
I'm also hoping to try and shoot a new set soon, I have kind of a cool idea I think. Hopefully it works out.
I hope that the rest of you out there are doing better than I am right now.
So... questions! What's your favourite hair colour, natural or not?
♥
Okay.
So; I know I haven't been around much.
I've been both slightly busy and rather depressed.
I feel like I'm going around in circles.
I'll be down for a while, things will kind of plateau, things will get a little better, I'll have a good morning one day and then that same day some shit will be laid down that will cause a crash.
It's incredibly frustrating.
I try really hard to be optimistic and not put my burdens on other people.
Of course, this usually means I keep it all bottled up.
I avoid writing rants because I don't feel that anyone cares to read them; I have few friends and even fewer close ones that I think would even care about the way I'm feeling.
But this isn't supposed to be about that; more or less, I just feel stuck.
I hate my job. It makes me depressed and it feels pointless. I want to make something. I want to be productive. I really want to go back to school.
For those of you who don't know, I went to an art college after high school, though I dropped out after a semester. Most of it was paid for, but I did have to take out a few thousand in loans and I still owe the school about $1,000 out of pocket (a few thousand may seem like a lot, but considering tuition was about $40,000 a year it's nothing). Unfortunately, the company that I took my student loan from failed to inform me properly that I've owed them payments for the last 6 months. If I had known, I could've payed them, but now I owe them about $500. Ugh.
I'm not sure how it's going to affect me trying to go to school again. I'm worried and frustrated and I feel like I'm stuck in a hole.
I'm just a bit sick of running in circles.
On another note, a lighter note, I did dye my hair again. I seem to have an addiction... hm.
It was supposed to be purple, but it's really more of a fuchsia colour.
I think it's kind of pretty anyways, though.
I'm also hoping to try and shoot a new set soon, I have kind of a cool idea I think. Hopefully it works out.
I hope that the rest of you out there are doing better than I am right now.
So... questions! What's your favourite hair colour, natural or not?
♥
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pawko4b:
wooo happy birthday Dear 
nay_____:
yay, you're two decades old!