dear

"Lately I have a hard time waking up, I suppose it is normal with everything that is happening right now in the world. But I'm really worried!

My job will allow the company I work for to close the business. From next month I will not have a job to return to, finishing the quarantine. I feel a pressure on my chest every time I think about it. My whole city is unemployed so there is no way how to get a good job right now. And I begin to feel that all my effort is not worth it. My photo shoots are on hiatus so I don't have any extra income either.

Then morning comes and again I don't feel like waking up anymore 😔 my mother was diagnosed with thyroid cancer but her treatment will continue until the pandemic ends. Because all the hospitals in my country became covid centers. I need to have a job again or get my photos back to pay for part of his treatment. I know that everything has a solution but today I feel that my emotions are an endless dark tunnel 😔

I have always been characterized by being the smiling and happy girl. I am always the positive girl who helps her friends. But right now I don't feel that way. I know that everyone has their own problems so I don't want to worry more people about my situation. I just needed to get what I have and found that here is a quiet place to talk. I feel broken." (Anonymous)

Responding SG: @plum

Hey there lovely,

First of all I’m sorry your mom is going through the cancer situation, it must be pretty worrying specially in today’s world.

I’m sorry the job situation doesn’t sound pleasant either, losing a job is never fun or easy to then get back on your feet but it doesn’t mean you should drop down your arms and not trust the journey. As I personally always say “everything happens for a reason” and it’s the reality of today, I feel like the world needed a step back to foresee what we have been missing, what we have been doing to our planet and how we have been treating our human pals through this life.

There is always a massive drop, before the good starts happening again, and in your case it’s happening right now, don’t fear it, don’t resist it, you’ll figure it out in the end! The feeling in your chest is the worry of the unknown, and I totally understand the panic deep inside you, I’ve been there so many times before, but we inflict it on ourselves by overthinking it all and creating scenes in our head that probably will never happen, but because we not sure where our life is going, we tend to imagine the worst.

Fear not, you will survive and you will come out stronger on the other end, the happy smiley you will return, and your life will start adjusting as you wish, but you need to attract the energy your mind needs right now, which is the calm and peace. It’s hard? I believe you, but it’s not impossible! All your efforts are worth a million more than you may know, for yourself, for your mom, for the world. It’s all connected, it’s all a road you have to follow right now, and no matter what, you will be fine.

Believe in yourself, in the power of your soul, your mind and you as a being, appreciate what you have right now, be grateful for who you have in your life right now, look around and absorb everything that surrounds you like for the first time! Enjoy the simple moments, perhaps pick up a book you always wanted to ready, if you don’t have one, my suggestion will be “Stop Thinking and Start Living” it has been a crazy eye opener for my journey, or maybe “The Alchemist” it’s also a very profound exploration about personal longings.

If not a book reader, maybe listen to some relaxing music, perhaps brown noise or white noise, to not distract yourself much from the feelings, make yourself a hot cocoa and lay down on the bed with your cluttered mind, and slowly organise it on the shelves, all the fears, all the worries, let them consume you for a minute, cry it all out, let it explode from inside you and allow the feeling to go through you. Then when you’re ready, let it go, let it all go, it’s not worth holding on to negative feelings because we won’t ever feel peace if we do so, so let them move on, let the feelings be washed away, just like sand on the beach by the waves washing it back into the sea.

Do not fear the unknown, embrace it, you will discover yourself in ways you get haven’t thought about, but you will, when the time is right, it’s all going to make sense, I promise, you will be fine ♥️

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