So how has everyone been? Summer is on its way, and that means lots of endorphins from sex, sunshine, and increased activity. Gotta love the summer.
My last entry was about some sketching I've been doing for a Skyrim Modder, and it seems he's doing a few more armors from my sketches. It seems to be a good collaboration and Its nice to see my ideas become useful and something others can enjoy. Not that I've been playing much skyrim lately (the crashing is getting to be too much! Gah!) because we've now been introduced to all three Mass Effect games. I've been watching Gabe play so much that my freakin dreams are in the questing format of Mass Effect 3. Even had an epic lesbian dream with Miranda. Sigh...
Besides that, we found a beautiful new nature park where we've been going on walks as much as possible. A nice healthy habit, which combined with my healthy smoothies and introduction of more fruits and veggies in our diet will hopefully help us lose weight and get healthier! Not to mention the exercise bike we're getting next week.....
And on the note of health, I made an appointment with my primary care doctor to see if she can take a look at my back. I've been feeling stiffness developing in my lower back, limiting movement and putting stress on my mid back which is doing all the "bending" work because of the immobility of the lower section. That, combined with my ever-curving neck that my chiropractor documented nicely and gave me a visual of what I'll look like in ten years after further degeneration, yay me. All this, and some strange eye pain symptoms that I didn't think to connect, might point to me inheriting my father's Akylosing Spondelitis, a form of Rhuemetoid Arthritis. Now, I have already inherited the Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Endometriosis from my mother's side, and theres no telling if the EDS will make the AS act any differently with me. But, since there is no blood test for AS like there is for other types of rhuematoid arthritis, its time to start with the x-rays and other imaging to see if any inflammation or fusion can be seen. It can take up to 10 years though of symptom progression before anything can be visually seen and confirmed and diagnosed, and thus treated. So I'm not exactly hopeful that this upcoming appointment will be the key to me getting answers - I may have to wait years and years and will just have to keep my doctors aware of my concerns and keep checking with imaging every year or two. In the meantime, while I'm not sure, I can get preventative (as I can with a genetic disorder) with anti-inflammatories and keeping myself active, and focusing on posture as much as I can. I don't know if having AS will change my life that much, I already came to terms to what the Ehlers can and will do to me as I get older, and I've come to handle surprises better. My life will always be amount managing symptoms, and keeping track of progression and keeping close watch on risks. Nothing much will change. Females tend to get the milder symptoms of AS anyway, and I don't think my luck is bad enough to change THAT. And I already got the cane covered, the physical therapy covered, the doctors covered....I don't have much else to do but wait for X-Rays to confirm or deny. I'm not so indifferent about it to not care about finding out. Answers give me comfort, no matter what they are. Knowledge is power. So whatever is going on, I'm going to do whatever it takes to find out what the answers are. And proceed accordingly. I've learned how to deal with being the genetic cesspool of the family Anything bad in yer genes? Deanna's gonna get it! Woo! Hahaha. What I went through with the EDS has prepared me for almost anything else I could get though. I'm ok no matter what happens. I know how to take care of myself and my issues.
Besides that, we're going to start up the garden again. Backyard will be our edible garden, and frontyard will be our "pretty" garden. Our rock garden from last summer has survived beautifully, all the creeping thyme survived and thrived, and the others that seemed to "die" have fresh green and are growing back! And the other creeping plant, I forget the name, which didn't want to "creep" at all last summer, has FINALLY taken off and is weaving around all the beautiful rocks and flowering with its gorgeous little purple flowers and I'm so proud of it!!!! The real project for the front will be the raised bed area, we have to start from scratch there. But we're thinking of incorporating more rocks So we just need to think of what plants will compliment the house and the plants already in the front area. I adore gardening. I cannot wait to eat more fresh carrots and purple potatoes and cherry tomatoes! I hope we're able to do it cost effectively this summer. The financial situation is going downhill quickly for my family, and we can only do so much to help, being on the fixed income with disability. We're already paying them back for all the debt we've accrued from asking for help with kitten's vet bills, Gabe's wisdom teeth bills, and emergency trips to Washington. I don't know how much we can give extra until those are payed off. Its such a frustrating situation. I don't want to see them lose the house! Or their minds! The stress levels are just....bad, and getting worse. I can only pray things will get better and do what I can to help in the meantime.
Well, on a happier note, June 30th is me and Gabe's 5 year anniversary and I should be getting some "boudoir" photos taken for Gabe as a present And possibly an engagement photoshoot soon as well! I quite possibly saw the perfect ring today in the pawn shop (classy, I know ) and we might be laying that away soon. Not only that, but I have a friend who actually wants to help with the wedding, and everything related to it! She actually wants to throw me a bridal shower!!!! I never thought I'd have a friend willing to do that! I kinda want to jump and dance and squee with happiness because of her. It looks like this might actually be HAPPENING SOON! It NEEDS TO!
Oh, I also posted pictures from the concert me and Gabe went to where we actually MET Jeff Loomis, and got a picture to prove it Take a look if you want!
(also shows my new haircut, which I'm not sure if I like or not, some ways I love it, and some ways I seriously miss my long hair. I hope it grows back fast!!! I think this cut will look fabulous grown out!)
My last entry was about some sketching I've been doing for a Skyrim Modder, and it seems he's doing a few more armors from my sketches. It seems to be a good collaboration and Its nice to see my ideas become useful and something others can enjoy. Not that I've been playing much skyrim lately (the crashing is getting to be too much! Gah!) because we've now been introduced to all three Mass Effect games. I've been watching Gabe play so much that my freakin dreams are in the questing format of Mass Effect 3. Even had an epic lesbian dream with Miranda. Sigh...
Besides that, we found a beautiful new nature park where we've been going on walks as much as possible. A nice healthy habit, which combined with my healthy smoothies and introduction of more fruits and veggies in our diet will hopefully help us lose weight and get healthier! Not to mention the exercise bike we're getting next week.....
And on the note of health, I made an appointment with my primary care doctor to see if she can take a look at my back. I've been feeling stiffness developing in my lower back, limiting movement and putting stress on my mid back which is doing all the "bending" work because of the immobility of the lower section. That, combined with my ever-curving neck that my chiropractor documented nicely and gave me a visual of what I'll look like in ten years after further degeneration, yay me. All this, and some strange eye pain symptoms that I didn't think to connect, might point to me inheriting my father's Akylosing Spondelitis, a form of Rhuemetoid Arthritis. Now, I have already inherited the Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Endometriosis from my mother's side, and theres no telling if the EDS will make the AS act any differently with me. But, since there is no blood test for AS like there is for other types of rhuematoid arthritis, its time to start with the x-rays and other imaging to see if any inflammation or fusion can be seen. It can take up to 10 years though of symptom progression before anything can be visually seen and confirmed and diagnosed, and thus treated. So I'm not exactly hopeful that this upcoming appointment will be the key to me getting answers - I may have to wait years and years and will just have to keep my doctors aware of my concerns and keep checking with imaging every year or two. In the meantime, while I'm not sure, I can get preventative (as I can with a genetic disorder) with anti-inflammatories and keeping myself active, and focusing on posture as much as I can. I don't know if having AS will change my life that much, I already came to terms to what the Ehlers can and will do to me as I get older, and I've come to handle surprises better. My life will always be amount managing symptoms, and keeping track of progression and keeping close watch on risks. Nothing much will change. Females tend to get the milder symptoms of AS anyway, and I don't think my luck is bad enough to change THAT. And I already got the cane covered, the physical therapy covered, the doctors covered....I don't have much else to do but wait for X-Rays to confirm or deny. I'm not so indifferent about it to not care about finding out. Answers give me comfort, no matter what they are. Knowledge is power. So whatever is going on, I'm going to do whatever it takes to find out what the answers are. And proceed accordingly. I've learned how to deal with being the genetic cesspool of the family Anything bad in yer genes? Deanna's gonna get it! Woo! Hahaha. What I went through with the EDS has prepared me for almost anything else I could get though. I'm ok no matter what happens. I know how to take care of myself and my issues.
Besides that, we're going to start up the garden again. Backyard will be our edible garden, and frontyard will be our "pretty" garden. Our rock garden from last summer has survived beautifully, all the creeping thyme survived and thrived, and the others that seemed to "die" have fresh green and are growing back! And the other creeping plant, I forget the name, which didn't want to "creep" at all last summer, has FINALLY taken off and is weaving around all the beautiful rocks and flowering with its gorgeous little purple flowers and I'm so proud of it!!!! The real project for the front will be the raised bed area, we have to start from scratch there. But we're thinking of incorporating more rocks So we just need to think of what plants will compliment the house and the plants already in the front area. I adore gardening. I cannot wait to eat more fresh carrots and purple potatoes and cherry tomatoes! I hope we're able to do it cost effectively this summer. The financial situation is going downhill quickly for my family, and we can only do so much to help, being on the fixed income with disability. We're already paying them back for all the debt we've accrued from asking for help with kitten's vet bills, Gabe's wisdom teeth bills, and emergency trips to Washington. I don't know how much we can give extra until those are payed off. Its such a frustrating situation. I don't want to see them lose the house! Or their minds! The stress levels are just....bad, and getting worse. I can only pray things will get better and do what I can to help in the meantime.
Well, on a happier note, June 30th is me and Gabe's 5 year anniversary and I should be getting some "boudoir" photos taken for Gabe as a present And possibly an engagement photoshoot soon as well! I quite possibly saw the perfect ring today in the pawn shop (classy, I know ) and we might be laying that away soon. Not only that, but I have a friend who actually wants to help with the wedding, and everything related to it! She actually wants to throw me a bridal shower!!!! I never thought I'd have a friend willing to do that! I kinda want to jump and dance and squee with happiness because of her. It looks like this might actually be HAPPENING SOON! It NEEDS TO!
Oh, I also posted pictures from the concert me and Gabe went to where we actually MET Jeff Loomis, and got a picture to prove it Take a look if you want!
(also shows my new haircut, which I'm not sure if I like or not, some ways I love it, and some ways I seriously miss my long hair. I hope it grows back fast!!! I think this cut will look fabulous grown out!)
zebrah:
gah your oh so pretty