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apparently the girl that i had liked took that alot worse than i thought cause well im now at the end of her friends list all the sudden i was honest with her though ,,,,,,,, i jsut hope i didnt loose her as a friend ,,if so you may not hear form me for a bit casue well shes the onyl freind offline i've got so when i loose her therell be no more wild adventures or anythng for awhile. and well i loose the cahnc eto talk to someoen in perosnon a regular basis why is it that everyone says " the worst she can say is no" but there is worse the perosn can do and i'm proof of it. I tried going to my one freind stacy for advice since she came to me for advice when she was haveingguy trouble before and i figured it was ok eventhogh me and stacy had gone out on dates before that it was ok to ask her for advice since she had asked me for advice boy was i wrong ,,she jsut said " what the hell do you want me to do ",,,,,,,,,,well for starters listen since i listened to you

I'm a bit derpessed now,,not like the oh im gonna kill myself depressed but the kindof depressed where it gnaws at you that you jsut screwed a good thing up. I had wanted to go to the club tonight but now have lsot all energy to do so.

wish things were so gloomy but thats how they are.

on a plus side they locked the boards entry where peopel were making fun of me so whoever was responsible for locking it thank you.

T