deadofwinter

the thoughts that usually are swirling in my head at mach 3 have slowed to a crawl. there is so much I want to say but the words wont come out tonight. there are tears that I want to shed but they stay locked away for now. i almost feel light headed. kind of like when you are drunk and on your knees in front of the toliet about to throw up and all you want to do is get it over with so you can sleep. it just started as i was walking home up a hill. am i that out of shape? how is it i can react to a knife fight with cat like reflexs and the strength of men double my size but a short walk up a hill has made my head swim and my system dizzy and weak...

just one more thing to widen the grin on Fates evil smile. As I walked I had a vision of sorts flash in my head. a very dark and horrible flash. it would be just like Fate to do something like it just to have that ultimate lst laugh...