deadmanshand

This was going to be a witty post, and funny and full of Shenanigans and mimsy love....

but

I am being a bit lazy, and just feel a bit too fucked off to do it properly...and if you can't do something right, then don't do it....

well, things have been a bit up and down, worst of all was a falling out with someone quite close, and I am sure it will be ok in time, I am just a bit offended and hurt, because you know, when someone happily tells you all your faults and berrates you for how much you have fucked certain things up, and wont actually let you speak, and then gets judgmental, and says the worst thing anyone can ever say in that situation...'Well, I wouldn't of let myself get into a situation like that'......

annoyingly, this person has got herself into many a situation that is a million times more stupid, on a million more occasions, however, all anyone ever offers her is support, which is all anyone ever can do, even when you know/think they are making a massive mistake, or doing something destructive and stupid, all you can do is support them, you don't judge those you love (at least in my book)......and well, there are only a few things that make me really angry....hypocricy, self righteousness, nagging and the inability to accept when you've fucked uip and apologise.... so she managed to hit all four in a few sentences...

sorry, had to get that off my chest....speaking of which

i feel like I owed you for reading this far

am really starting to get bored at home alone most days, I really should go out more, but it is very cold and wet at the minute However, now I have music on my Ipod touch (only took me since christmas ) its quite nice to wander around to various musical titbits

speaking of titbits...

I must also recommned the following books, that i have read this weekend....
Piercing by Ryu Murakami which is about as mental and fucked up as a book gets, also, check out his In The Miso Soup.........very good books, set in tokyo, and all around weird psycho's and murder, but in a very darkly funny and disturbing way....

I also recommend Pulp: a novel by Charles Bukowski, every line oozes cool and wit, and the soprt of dialogue you wish you could speak everyday.....my favourite being...
"I never saw an ass like that in my life. Beyond concept. Beyond everything. Don't bother me now. I want to think about it. "

speaking of ass...

anyway, don't know what else to ramble on about really....you should all check out the MIGHTY CARDINAL SINN and help him fill his wall fo sin

speaking of sin...

anyway, hope you all had a good weekend, and have a good week!!