deaddarkstar

This is exactly how I feel at this moment....
Current mood: devious
Current thought process: insanity
Current emotion: none.
Current remedy: none.

I feel as if I am on the verge of totally and completely destroying myself and it feels good to be on this edge.
I fear that I have become almost entirely robotic, almsot lucid.
I have absolutely removed all of what I believed was left of me. What was left of this soul I was cursed to carry.
I can sense weakness everywhere. Everything is so very fragile. Everything in this world is about to crumble and be driven solidly into the ground. I am afraid of what I could accomplish knowing that I exist in a world so very, very delicate. I sense the fear in this world and it emboldens me. It takes almost all of my energy to wreak complete havoc.
This is truth.
I pity the day that I finally release all of what I have built up inside of me. All of the anger that I baste daily, as I cover the water that boils beneath my skin, I am afraid of this. It takes almost all of my energy to keep this.
The best and worst aspect is that I enjoy the way this feels. In time, this world will burn.
I lose a small amount of my control daily; I don't know how much longer I can hold out.
There are no miracles.
There are no angels left.
No one gets away this time.

Current medication will be needed immediately to repress and forget everything.