dead_squishy

i am currently sharing a work camp with. This is ok most of the time. Then sometimes alcohol is involved and everyones brains fall out, muscles become imaginarily large as do penis sizes. everything becomes one giant pissing contest, to which since i do not drink, nor talk about fighting or the women i've been with, I am deemed to loose. This is the worst part of my job. It is seen as a non skilled workforce, which is far from the truth. But we continuely end up with the dregs of society on our doorstep. Which until you add alcohol is fine because they work very hard and do a good job. Just all this stupid machoism fucks me right off, and sometimes, just sometimes i really feel like putting the odd one or two in their place. But i know words will not have an affect and i know i probably could physically put them in their place the idea repulses me. I'm a passive person. I do not like conflict. yet i dearly would love to just go an knock some sense into a guy right now. makes me so mad. i think that it is part of the reason i don't drink too, my dad would look for fights when he was drunk. I'm worried i might too. so far in the few times i have got slightly drunk i just get really sleepy. i like the idea of being a sleep drinker.... but i never really know i guess...