dead_squishy

Friends of the family lost their daughter today. Aged 10. My step father was the God-father to her mum. Her Grandfather was my step fathers best mate. Her family came to his funeral, now ours will to hers. I don't know what to do or what to think. I never really met the girl, but i know her mum, her dad, her grandparents, her uncle and aunties.... I think i will stay here. the funeral is likely to be next week and it a minimumof 12hrs travel away. Recently there has been to much death. My Uncle, My grandma, my step father, my mates grandfather, my grandfather and now this little girl. So much sadness. I feel it changing me. When i think about the family lost it brings me to the brink of tears, yet i can never cry. it never comes out. sadness eats me up inside. nothing can change that people will die. i can accept that. but i cannot seem to greive fully. sadness.