Five things you didn't know about Dayva before:
* I used to be in an abusive relationship. Not like beating although I'm sure we would have gotten there eventually, but emotional. I'm really ashamed of that. Looking back now, it's like how could I let myself get into that situation and have it balloon up to the point where I was so miserable? I should probably do some soul searching and find out where I went wrong, but my armchair psychologist says I've damn near perfected my denial technique, and why fuck with all that progress.
* I used to smoke a lot of pot. Like a lot. I haven't smoked in over two years. The last time I did scared the shit out of me. I passed out and had a seizure or something, cops were called. It was bad. I've been too scared to touch the stuff since.
* My parents were way strict growing up. One time in high school in order to sneak out and hang with a few friends, I crushed up several Tylenol PM and put in dinner. I was such an idiot. I mean I drugged my parents. Stupid. I still feel guilty about it.
* I don't give a shit about music. I only listen to music in my car. I only listen to crap. I own a Britney Spears CD, not because I'm a huge fan, but because I can dance around to her retarded music without thinking about it. It's just music. I don't want it to be deep.
* Shokwave rocks my socks. Ok, ya'll knew that, but it needs reinforcing![biggrin](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/biggrin.b730b6165809.gif)
* I used to be in an abusive relationship. Not like beating although I'm sure we would have gotten there eventually, but emotional. I'm really ashamed of that. Looking back now, it's like how could I let myself get into that situation and have it balloon up to the point where I was so miserable? I should probably do some soul searching and find out where I went wrong, but my armchair psychologist says I've damn near perfected my denial technique, and why fuck with all that progress.
![skull](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/skull.4242d54c7e24.gif)
* I used to smoke a lot of pot. Like a lot. I haven't smoked in over two years. The last time I did scared the shit out of me. I passed out and had a seizure or something, cops were called. It was bad. I've been too scared to touch the stuff since.
![surreal](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/surreal.c4753148b56b.gif)
* My parents were way strict growing up. One time in high school in order to sneak out and hang with a few friends, I crushed up several Tylenol PM and put in dinner. I was such an idiot. I mean I drugged my parents. Stupid. I still feel guilty about it.
![blackeyed](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/punch.6a3d8a00b8f8.gif)
* I don't give a shit about music. I only listen to music in my car. I only listen to crap. I own a Britney Spears CD, not because I'm a huge fan, but because I can dance around to her retarded music without thinking about it. It's just music. I don't want it to be deep.
![whatever](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/rollseyes.21cb35fd0ec2.gif)
* Shokwave rocks my socks. Ok, ya'll knew that, but it needs reinforcing
![biggrin](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/biggrin.b730b6165809.gif)
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As far as mentally abusive relationships go, I think everyone's been there. You just don't see it when you're in it like you do when you get out of it. Don't blame yourself. Just be glad you see it for what it was, so many don't and continue the cycle.