daysofgrace13ben

These past couple months have been incredibly blessed and cursed in one. I quit my job out of nothing but love and serene devotion for my one and only. Couple of weeks later I got a job. I went from comfortable living not even having enough money to live. But I had her-that was all that mattered. Then came the cancer and she got so sick. I almost lost her but didn't. And that was all that mattered. Then I lost her as my lover she is now the best friend I ever had. At least I didn't lose her. Again I have no money and come Monday I'll Have to move back in with mom. I am 30 years old. At least I never lost her like I lost my father by my own desire. I am selling everything and anything that is no an absolute need. I have come to realize that you only need what you need not what you want. I guess I have it all then. But though I never lost her I''ll never again have her and she is what I need and bleed. But she doesn't see me. Peace to all. Try not to live trapped in the loney towers of your long mistakes. xoxo to all!